♥ MiNE ♥

thank you Allah

2012-02-11T00:01:00.001+08:00

alhamdulillah..

will do the best for next semester & ahead. insyaAllah

childhood

2012-02-08T16:40:00.000+08:00

i miss those time.
CHILDHOOD was the best moment in life.

& sometimes, i do something to bring back the memories. :)

in the past, when i was a kid. i was so afraid to play with this thing. & there is a picture taken by my mom i guess. i was crying & my dad was trying to push me. while i was crying, i hold the pole tightly. & my dad kept convincing me to slide. then, i don't know how, i released my grip. & i slide. that moment.. i stopped crying & i wanted to play it again & again. huu~

see.. there a lesson. no matter how scared u are.. u have to try it. u have to get over it. & things gonna be just ok & u will find it fun. :)

i miss my childhood.

imperfect me again

2012-02-08T03:40:00.002+08:00

yes. the imperfect me. again & again. how bad i am as a daughter, friend, gF or anything pon. im suck at everything.

*slalu ikut kpla sendri
*tak mengalah
*tak mengaku salah
*degil
*salah sendiri tapi sendiri yang hangin
**** macam macam lagi

stop expecting for sumthing impossible

2012-02-03T00:39:00.000+08:00

"Don't blame people for disappointing you. Blame yourself for expecting too much."

hurmmm..

alhamdulillah

2012-01-31T00:31:00.000+08:00

alhamdulillah. semester satu yang berjaya buat eqa. dulu masa diploma, semester satu sgt main2. bukan nye ape. dok rindu umah memanjang. nangis tak henti henti. hee~ homesick gler. yerlakan. tb2 je kne p jauhhhhh dari family. so, masa diploma.. semester satu tu agak ke laut la jugak..

then, untuk dgree, eqa mmg tanak main2 da.. mmg eqa put all the effort untuk dgree nih. mmg mula2 teragak2 jugak, sbb subjek sem satu ni bukan subjek biasa. huu~ nak nak lecturer po strict kan.

tapi, bler da tgk carry mark.. insyaAllah.. tercapai hasrat. untuk final plak. hurmm.. eqa mmg jenis tak suka stdy pon. dalam kelas uh, mmg focus seratus pratus *weewittt* hehe.. so, revision bler nak exam uh. hurmm.. tgk mood. tapiiii.. bler dikelilingi oleh rumet yang kaki study.. mmg kne la jugak tempias nye kan. agak tercabar tgk dorang study. eqa pon. ape lagi. amek buku study la. sambil tgk citer korea kat lappy kesayangan. hehehe..

& now.. final pon da abis. result pon da keluar. ALHADULILLAH. itu saja yg mampu. terima kasih ya Allah atas pemberian ini. dapat jugak banggakan mak & ayah :)

untuk semester2 yang akan datang, i'll do the best. for me & for my parents. insyaAllah..

riadah di satu petang

2012-01-26T16:47:00.003+08:00

semalam ktorang kuar. *eqa, akak, along, angah*. ingt nak g beli tudung aJ kat Utem. skali tutup da. adeh laaa. then lepas da g sane uh. ktorang gerak gi mydin ayer keroh plak. saje je jalan2 kat ctu. padahal tade ape pon. aishhh laaa..

then, timbul la idea kakak. nak g kayak kat Tasik Ayer Keroh. ktorang pon pegi lah. da sampai sane. mmg xcited gler ar kan. huhu~.

mula2 uh kitorang naek paddle boat. pastu men plak water ball. then ktorang ingt nak naek basikal yg ade dua paddle uh. tapi basikal da abis. so, ktorang maen la kayak. muahaha.. mmg sgt seronok. yg paling memenatkan masa maen water ball. mmg gler ar benda alah tu. tp best sgtttt...

& korang. kat tasik ayer keroh uh ade macam2 aktiviti. kalo korang free, ptg2 tu g la sane. ade wall climbing, paintball. & macam2 lagi. wee~ sempat promote kan. hehehe..

ni ade few gmbo. tgk laa. ^_^

2012-01-26T16:26:00.001+08:00

sunday, 15th January 2012

2012-01-19T00:30:00.001+08:00

it was my last day for my final exam. my last paper. my grammar thingy paper. the only subject that i've been learning since school & still learning. & still not that pro. huu~ so, as the conclusion. my paper for that day was so-so.

then, few days before sunday, i asked him to come to serdang. to help me with those stuffs. hehe.. nak dijadikan citer, eqa ni mmg la seorang yg bengis+ego+degil. kannn..? so, adelah sumthing happened before Sunday tu. so. eqa cakap kat dier. "dah, tayah datang. i dun need u". ekeke. gler kejam & ego. padahal nak dier datang kot. then, ntah mcm mane ntah bole okay. so, the plan went as what we had planned.

pada hari kejadian.... eqa habis paper jam 3.30 ptg. & si mR. bunchet uh gerak kol 230.. so, kol 4.30 jugak la dier sampai. tu pun kat TBS. ekkkk.. pemalas nye bunchet nak datang upm. huhu.. abis je paper. balik ostel, makan & rushing amek barang kat bilik yang kat TINGKAT 5 tuh. & terus ke TBS....

sampai TBS... hai awak mR. Bunchet yg disayangi. :). saya bahagia nampak awak kat ctu.
makan2 lagi kat TBS.. tp mR. bunchet la yang monopoli makanan. hehehehe.. & & &.. beg sandang eqa ade pink pink taw. bler eqa suruh dier tolong bawakkan beg tu.. dier cakap macam ni "alaaa.. jatuh saham la pakai beg ni". hehe.. ade i kesahhhh...?? :D.

ktorang gerak balik mlka jam 7.25 ptg.

nota untuk si jantung hati..
"awak awak. terima kasih ye sbb datang. terima kasih sbb sudi tolong saya. terima kasih sbb sudi memenatkan diri awak tu. tp ok what. daripada awak terlantar atas katil buat taik mata je. at least, u do sumthing yang berfaedah sikit. tolong orang. kannn..? hehe.. sayang.. thanx a lot. i really appreciate it. later, boleh tolong i lagi. wee~. i love you. thanx sesangat.. & sorry sayang for having such a troublemaker girlfriend. huu~. thanx thanx & thanx..!! I HEART YOU. I LOVE YOU..!!"

eqa.Roslan

2012-01-19T00:13:00.000+08:00

i will keep on smiling no matter what happen.
that is just me.
^_^

me, myself & the rest

2012-01-10T22:36:00.001+08:00

i am acting like nothing has happened. in fact, it has happened.
i am acting like i am ok with those attitude by some people. but who cares?
things changed.
& people are slowly walking away.
& memories are slowly fading away.
& i am the only person who give a damn fucking care towards all the memories. but they are letting it go easily.

yes. i am the fool. who thoughts that everything was just fine. apparently, it was not the way i thought.

siapa aku untuk terus berpegang dgn sgala kenangan silam, yang bg aku kenangan yang tak mampu aku lupakan, yang buatkan satu hubungan itu kukuh dgn adanya kenangan2 manis bersama. yang bilamana satu masa nnti, tika butir bicara mengenai satu kenangan manis masa silam mampu membuka butir2 bicara lain mengenai kenangan manis lain. yang mana kenangan itu bukti satu perhubungan utuh yang pernah aku dan kalian lalui, lantas kita kongsikan kenangan itu bersama. kita sulamkan kenangan itu dalam ingatan agar ia terpamer indah.

& i am the only who has that kind of thought. pity me huh?

siapa saja yang akan terus menerus menghulurkan tali silaturrahim pada aku yang satu ketika dulu buat khilaf. dan hanya aku yang terus menerus menanti untuk kalian mencari aku kembali. haruskah impian itu aku titipkan? haruskah aku menunggu walau ku tahu itu sukar untuk terjadi. siapa aku untuk meminta itu ini? siapa aku untuk kalian pedulikan?

hurmmm. & i'll put a fullstop here. my heart is getting weaker. night.

p/s : who cares? none of you. rite? thanx for the good memories. thanx for everything.

do we look alike?

2012-01-10T13:34:00.002+08:00

serupa tak muka kami..??
hehehe~

words are dangerous

2012-01-06T14:37:00.004+08:00

well, with words people can get hurt easily. normally in facebook, when u post sumthing to condemn sumone, but unfortunately, others are getting hurt. & not the intended person.....

& it seems hard for you to put thing in the right place again. hurmmm..

well i guess. it happens to me.. i posted that status for sumone. but there were people misunderstood it. seriously, what shud i do? i was blurred. shud i clear it out to that person. that the status wasn't for him/her.

it does put me in the state of blurriness. huu~

so, sorry guys for the words that may came out from my mouth. & the words that showed up in the facebook & blog. im sorry for the wrong i've made intentionally or unintentionally.

p/s : i need u as always. & i miss the way we used to be. the laughable moment. the sharing is caring part.

negativity

2012-01-05T02:47:00.000+08:00

negativity of everything in my mind.
shuhhh.. shuhh...
go away.

& happy new year dear friends. new year means new age. new age means we are getting older & death is getting closer to us.

so, what's ur new year RESOLUTION ? obviously, like before, when were still a lalala kiddos, we always talked about our new year resolution. siap list out lagi. yet, last year punyer azam pon tak settle2 lagi. huu~

when few people are busy talking about their new year resolutions, & i just sit there, listen to them or read those statuses in facebook. macam best la plak. muahaha.. seriously, i have no new resolution(s). i just want to forget about the past, the bitters. the happy memories but recently, it seems faded away, so im going to forget about all that junks. ya. junks. there no use to remember those things b'coz others were easily letting it go from their memory storage.

& i... deleting those junks. formatting my memory storage & store another memories. yaa, i know. it kinda hard to forget the past.. but i'll not stop praying for it. may Allah helps me. may the junks go away.

& yeahhh... one more thing.. being a smart student yang akan score setiap semester. HAHAHAHA.. angan2 mat jenin. tapi.. mmg nak macam tu pon.

err.. owkeh la. btw, kata2 untuk malam ini. never ever trust people easily...!!! sbb once kiter da percaya, & bler sumthing happen kiter akan sangat amat kecewa. trust me. :)

p/s : zaman skola was the best-est years ever. & it will never be da same for me.

EXAM

2012-01-03T10:58:00.001+08:00

good luck untuk semua yang menghadapi final exam..!
good luck untuk saya juga..!!!

2011-12-29T01:56:00.002+08:00

hello & goodbye

2011-12-29T01:01:00.002+08:00

there is a HELLO..
&
there is a GOODBYE.
so.
GOODBYE for now.
till we meet again.

waterfall at Ayer Hitam, Puchong

2011-12-28T01:14:00.002+08:00

ini gambar kat waterfall tu. cantik kan air dier..? hijau hijau biru macam tu. jernih sangat. kedalam air terjun ni adalah 15meter. dalam gilerrrrr.. tapi still leh nampak dasar dier. ade kayu berbentuk Y yang besar kat dasar air ni... tenang je tempat ni.

ini gambar eqa .. muahahahaha.. sajer nak masukkan gambo gedik2 kat sini. hahahaha. ni masa kat perkampungan org asli. masa ni da abis event. tgh tggu bus datang. bosan2.. kiter amek gmbo laa.. hehehe

camping QKU2101

2011-12-25T18:47:00.000+08:00

QKU2101 adalah kod untuk kursus ko-kurikulum berkredit pengakap kelana siswa.
so, hari jumaat lepas, 23 Disember 2011 ktorg gerak dari upm ke Hutan Simpan Ayer Hitam, Puching. dan sampai lah hari ni the last day, 25 Disember 2011.

before g camping ni. bnyk lah hal2 yang agak kelam kabut, tak tersusun. tak ape smua la. mmg agak tension la jugak masa nak uruskan pelbagai bnda. but then... hari ni. da terbukti, semuanye adalah worth it. :)

alhamdulillah. event kat perkampungan orang asli pon berjalan dengan lancar.

& kitorg sempat jungle trekking. awesome amat bler tgk waterfall kat tempat tuh. cantik. satu keindahan alam yang semula jadi. yg belum disentuh oleh mana2 pihak pon. cantik gler kot...!!!! huu~

gmbar ... nanti eqa masukkan. k..?? k lah. tgh tggu abang ni. sementara tunggu dier. buat satu post jap. hee~

byeee..!

exam is just around the corner.

2011-12-22T19:32:00.001+08:00

Whoahhh.. pejam celik pejam celik.. da nak abis semester 1.

Next week study week. Then, final pulak. 4 papersssss..huu~ wish mi lak wish mi lak. Hehe

Target 4.00 kalo mampu. Kalo tak. 3.50 ke atas. insyaAllah…

Kalo stakat target, tapi tak buat ape2. Study pon tak. Memangtak la nak capai target. Kan?

Subject sem ni, hurmm.. ok la. Tp kne bnyk membaca. Every paperade essay. ~.~”

Eden dah la lomah bab nak karang mengarang ayat ni. Ngan theorynye lagik. Huu~

Takpe.. di mana ada kemahuan, di situ ade jalan.

Kalo tak capai target, mesti tension je nnti kan.

Hurmm. Hurmm. Takpe, ini satu cabaran buat eqa.

I’ll do my best..!

saya sayang saya. ;)

2011-12-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

I hardly believe that I am 22 y/o right now. Timeis moving so fast that I can’t even realize i’m getting older day by day. Sumtime,when people asked me bout my age. I bcame confuse. Muahaha.. tak ingt umursendiri. Sengal kan? Yeahhh.. sayer mmg sengal. ~.~”. tapi sayer suka. Hahaha..

I am enjoying myself in this world though sumtimes few sad,bitter things happened. But hey! That’s not a life namenye kalo bnda baek jeyang blaku. Kan? So, till now, I’ve been through a rough but happy life.

I am happy to be me. Im not copycat-ing others. Not even abit pon. I am being me. The naive me. Muahaha.. *naive ke?* sikit la kot. I love being me, Nur Syafiqahyang cool, emo, sensitive, childish, kind-hearted, good girl.. hahaha.. ok ok. Sayermelebih2 sket. Yang kuat perasannnnnnnnnnn. Itu memang sayer. Hee~

Life is amazing, isn’t it? Life teaches u lots of things. Fromthe things that u oredi know to the things that u never expected that willhappen in ur life. Things that u watch in movies, suddenly happen to you, takrasa macam da jadi watak dalam movie ke? Pastu tgk keliling, ade tak cameratersembunyi. Hehehehe…

Just, enjoy ur life to the fullest. But make sure, itsbalance between dunnia wal akhirah. Enjoy, enjoy jugak. Tapi kne ingt jugaktuntutan kiter sbgai umat Islam. Wallahualam. ;)

my very first time

2011-12-20T01:01:00.000+08:00

ape yg 'my very first time' sangat tu kan...?? huu~
tade ape pon.
first time bawak keta auto di sekitar selangor.
pada waktu malam. HAHAHA..
abis la kalo mak tau. hee~
tadi mula-mula nak keta manual. sbb before ni pon da biasa manual kannn.
tp tade keta manual. ade auto je. nak xnak. amek je la.
dalam hati berdebar giler da. 1st time kottttt.
eqa nak kuar g makan malam ngan rumets je pon.
then minimum sewa keta 3 jam. amek je la.
kuar kol 9. balik kol 12.
lepas makan.. ktorang g downtown kat depan the mines.
jalan jalan. pusing pusing. besar gak downtown situ.
tak abis pusing pon.
nnti nak g lagi la. nak pusing satu downtown uh.
dah la barang2 murah. hu hu hu...
nnti... kalo ade masa lagi. nak pegi lagi.
ngan rumettttttt..
^_^

makanan kami untuk tadiiii.. at chop & steak house. berbaloi-baloiiii.. ;)

with rumet yang GILER2. hehehe

terima kasih awak

2011-12-18T18:27:00.002+08:00

hey mista bunchet. kiter mmg giler kan? xpecially you la kan. kan? huu~
terima kasih ye melayan karenah sayer yang ntah pape ni.
yang suka suka je moody tak tentu pasal.
yang suka suka je nak marah you.
yang suka suka je carik pasal even bnda kecik.
yang suka suka je nak merajuk tak tntu hala.
yang suka suka je nak jeles tak pasal pasal.
yang suka suka je buat suka suka. hee~
ye. sayer mmg macam tu.
tapi awak sangat lah bersabar dengan sayer kan?
even kadang kadang terlepas jugak baran awak kat sayer.
hu hu hu...

sayer taw awak benci sayer kalau
time awak bercakap, sayer buat bnda lain.
tapi percayalah. sayer dengar je ape awak cakap. cuma sayer tak reti duduk diam.

sayang awak sangat sangat.
heart you a lot Mista Bunchet. <3

to be honest

2011-12-10T02:54:00.001+08:00

to be honest la kan.. actually, there are LOTS of things yang eqa agak kurang senang hati, kurang enak, kurang gemar sejak akhir-akhir ni. hurmmm.. siyes. mmg rasa nak lepaskan je. tapi hati orang wehh. hati orang.. kne la kiter jaga. ye dak..? kalo hati kiter ni. sakit macam kne simbah asid pon. mmg tak ksah. mmg tak jadi hal la. tp orang lain ni, kalo da sakit hati ngan kiter. mau nye kiter ni di campak-campak je. huu~

ksian eden ni. pity me u know??

so.. nak tak nak. i have to. which is i MUST to keep everything on my own. *kecuali bercerita kat ehem ehem* hee~ iyer la kan. biar la. insyaAllah, org yg bersabar ni.. Allah akan tolong kiter. makanyer, sabar je la ye?

so. BYE

next semester

2011-12-08T12:05:00.001+08:00

next semester time table.
though i am free on Friday. doesn;t mean that i can go home anytime i want.
because i have co-curriculum on Saturday..
nasib baik la next semester last amek ko-ku. huu~

this sem pon blum abis lagi kan. hopefully, everything gonna be just fine for me. aminnn..

hello

2011-12-01T18:57:00.001+08:00

ouhh well.. hello everybody. how are you?
^_^

have a nice day..
hee~

the CYCLE

2011-11-28T19:17:00.001+08:00

You meet new people, become friends, and you eventually become close. You become a group who hangs out on a daily basis. Relationships and feelings form. You have fights and arguments among each other. Break ups happen, friendships are lost, and groups are fallen apart. And you become strangers slowly. But at the end of the day, deep down inside, you miss everything you had with the people you lost - Kristina Bellantes

happy 2nd anniversary

2011-11-28T00:00:00.000+08:00

happy 2nd anniversary
happy 24th months
happy 730 days..!!!

^__^

2 years & keep counting honey
i love you
& the love is always blooming.
& it just for you.

no matter how much we get into a fight
but it just a fight kann?
not affecting our love pon.
betol tak..?
ke it does affect ur love?

huu~

ada cara lain untuk express my love tak?
i reti guna perkataan je.
hee~

i LOVE YOU BUNCHET...!!!!!
thanx for everything.
thanx for the love honey..!!
lots of love from ur gemuk.. :)

reminiscing our first met. tp ni masa g jambori aritu. hee~

ke-busy-an

2011-11-27T10:42:00.001+08:00

ouhh ye.. mmg bz. life as a student ini. sgt bz. dgn assignments yang melambak-lambak. dengan proposal itu ini nye. dengan nak menguruskan diri nye. huu~ bz dowhhhh..

so, aritu da lepas satu proposal. alhamdulillah, just kne follow up dgn perkara2 lain sampai la hari kejadian tu nnti. nak kne cari sponsor, nak kne settle itu ini.hopefully, smua nye nnti berjalan dengan lancar.

& i have another proposal to be settled up. yang paling tableh blah, trus bagi kerja untuk buat proposal event besar kot.
game wall-climbing inter university in malaysia. erkkk.. den da la 1st year, 1st sem baru. pahtu terus bg event besar. adehhh.. mintak-mintak la mmpu buat. so, to those yang baca nih. ade experience handle game wall-climbing ni. tolong la bg tunjuk ajar. ye?

& ade sape2 berminat nak join?? muehehehe..

lagi satu... sape minat buat cerpen..??? tolong buatkan untuk sayer satu cerpen..!!! hehehhe..

un-recogniz-able number

2011-11-27T00:20:00.001+08:00

milik siapakah nombor nombor telefon itu???????
mengapa call beta then senyap biler beta jawab...???
suka sangat maen maen.
lempang laju laju kang baru taw erti penyesalan.
huu~

menyesal

2011-11-26T23:29:00.001+08:00

menyesal dengan kata-kata sendiri.
menyesal dengan perkataan-perkataan yang diucapkan tadi.
patutnye simpan sendiri je.
tapi mulut ni celupar sangat.
hurmmm..

*antara rasa hati sendiri dan rasa hati orang lain. patutnye lebih peka, lebih menjaga hati orang lain daripada diri sendiri. dengan itu takkan ada rasa ini. hurmm..

away

2011-11-17T16:40:00.001+08:00

away for 4 days & 3 nights.
heading to Terengganu..
jangan rindu sayer ye. hee~

BYEP..!

kepada BONDA tercinta

2011-11-17T00:36:00.001+08:00

selamat hari lahir bonda tercinta...
semoga segalanya baik2 sahaja.
semoga dikurniakan kesihatan yang elok.
semoga dipanjangkan umur.
semoga diperluaskan pintu rezki.
semoga sentiasa diberkati Allah.
aminnnn...

sayang mak sangat sangat...!!!!
& terima kasih banyak banyak sebab jaga adek.
dari kecik. sampai ke besor nih.
terima kasih mak..!

today

2011-11-16T18:26:00.001+08:00

done with one presentation.
another presentation is going to be tonight.
2 presentations in a day.
one done, one more to go.
after that. legaaaa.. coz no more presentation.
just will be busy with all the prose, short story & assignments.
ouhh yeahhh.. im going to terengganu tomorrow.
Scout Jamboree. hee~
until monday. & back to UPM on Tuesday morning.
where i will have to take a test as soon as i reach UPM. awesomeness kannn..?? huu~
so, reading my notes all the way in Jamboree. way to go eqa. huhuhu..
wish me luck, for the test. & Jamboree.

& its raining a lot today. & im not sleeping. congratulation to me. hehehe

psssttt*1 : thanx awak for the hardwork to get me a place to attend the jamboree. thanx a lot.. :)

psssttt*2 : 4.00 this semester. pray for me yurppp..!

before i go to ZzzzZZz

2011-11-13T00:57:00.001+08:00

so.. my last post for today. i mean for tonite.. but err. it's almost 1 am. so.. err.. wutever. huu~

so yeahh.. time moves on. we're getting older. people change. but memories never fade. either sweet or bitter. they are there. in your mind. in your heart. its never fade. kannn..?

hurmmm... i miss my childhood. i miss it badly.

assignment with the 'S' at the end.

2011-11-12T20:43:00.001+08:00

yeahhh.. assignment. lots & lots & lots of it. & being busy with the proposal.. it does make me feel a little bit stress & tired actually. but heyy.. student kannn..? everything is student-centered kannnn..? so, here i am. facing those things again. after a year did nothing, "goyang kaki like a queen", & now i have to use my brain in a proper way. muahaha...

so, i have to do 5 poems & a short story. i can handle the poems but not the SHORT STORY.. i'll make it really short if it is POSSIBLE. but nay, it is impossible. huu~

then i have to complete my BM assignment which is LARAS BAHASA ILMIAH. apparently, there are no such things. there are, but not really specific in its ILMIAH thingy. so, yeahh.. student centered again. u have to find it out by ur own. kannnn..??

then i have to critic a speech. ouhh.. maybe just maybe i could find the konon-malaysian-first-lady punyer speech. maybe there ARE lots of things to be criticized. huu~ but in a academic way la der. aiyarkkk..

so... there are 3 assignments. three seems to look a bit kannn? but there are killing me softly. huhuhu.. & the proposal. enough to blow up my head. & when the proposal get the approval, there comes the new explosive in my head. hu hu hu.

pity me. pity me.

it does help

2011-11-11T22:07:00.001+08:00

when someone ask u what happen whenever u r in misery, it does make u feel better. at least. someone is still care about u. & it does make ur tears falling down. & all u can do is crying coz what u feel is something that u shud keep on ur own. so, cry as much as u want. if u afraid that people will see ur tears, then wait till its raining. walk in the rain & cry, no onw will see ur tears. i wish it rains today. i would possibly need it. hurmm

diherdik, dihina, ditengking

2011-11-09T18:05:00.001+08:00

ye. ak hanya layak untuk dilayan sedemikian rupa. jangan persoalkan mengapa. sbb ak mmg layak untuk dilayan macam tu.

ak terletak kat tempat yang paling bawah. paling hina. ak manusia paling useless. ye. itu ak.
sekian

sakit lagi dan lagi

2011-11-09T16:55:00.000+08:00

entah la. asik sakit je dua tiga menjak ni. ade ape2 petanda kah.? huu~
malam tadi tgh syok2 tdo. kol 4 terjaga. langsung tableh tdo da. perut rasa semacam & rasa nak termuntah. tapi buat tataw je dlu. cba gak tdo. dalam kol 5 macam uh bgn la nak duduk sbb perut mmg tak slesa amat. terus termuntah. pintu plak berkunci, kelam kabut nak bukak. bler da muntah2 uh. terus mandi. terus tak tdo. cuba gak nak tdo. tapi keadaan perut yg tak slesa. dgn ade lagi rasa2 muntah kat tekak. mmg meloyakan la kan. haihhh. ape nak jadi ni. asik sakit je ni. 2 mggu lepas. demam. tak boleh tdo malam. siap merapu raban bler tdo. pastu ditambah pulak dengan selesema. mmg terbaikkk la kan..

ouhh badan. jangan lah asik sakit je. kesian la kat saya. saya perlu bertenaga untuk belajar. hurmmm..

final exam 1st sem - session '11/'12

2011-11-04T23:22:00.001+08:00

yezzaaa... jadual sudah kuar. so, im not going to be like the old me anymore. whereas last minute study is always the 1st choice. na'ahhh... not anymore dear. it's a new part of life where i have. eh i MUST actually. to do something to rectify everything. to rearrange my life. to put my life into the correct path.

yesss..!! rasa2 nye mampu tak jadi top student lagi? huhu... i will do my best...!!!!

pssstt : i put a target for my 1st semester. its quite higher actually. doakan sayer berjaya mencapai target. :)

hye NOVEMBER

2011-11-01T21:17:00.002+08:00

hai NOVEMBER..
welcome new month.
16 days more before mummy's birthday.
27 days more before the 2nd Anniversary.
save the date dear. :)

& November.
please be nice to me.
bring me some good & happy news k November..?

^__^

28 October 2011

2011-10-29T03:16:00.000+08:00

sebenarnya, 28 October 2011 genap 2 tahun kenal dier. i mean, yg 1st met kat KEMPORI uh. so, tarikh ni. tarikh kitorg jumpa, tgk muka, pandang pandang, jeling jeling for the very 1st time. makna nye, semalam.. genap 2 tahun kitorang kenal. dan hari ni, 2 tahun 1 hari.

still, ingt lagi that day. tgh jaga registration counter dengan Haniz a.K.a along.. tengah2 dok borak2, gelak2. then datang 3 orang budak lelaki dari MMU Melaka. & then, borak2 sikit ngan dorang ni. yerla kann.. eqa kan org Melaka. MMU tuh plak dekat bebenor ngan umah eqa. tu yg borak2 sikit. few minutes later, datang sorang budak laki lagi. rambut panjang. muka kerek. & terus berjabat tangan ngan abg. Adli. perhati je dier. ntah. tataw knpe bler dgn dier, mulut terus terkatup rapat. terus terbisu. huu~ dier nak isi borang, dier mintak pen. Haniz yg bagi kat dier. masa tu, nak pandang muka dier pon cam, "err, malunyer". hahaha.. giler kannn..?

so, itu detik2 awal pertemuan kami. yg pada mulanye, terasa asing sekali. tapi ade satu getar, ade satu rasa di lubuk hati. tataw kenapa.. tapi rasa itu yang hadir. yang pada mulanya, tak terlintas langsung akan satu perhubungan yang lebih serius. dan beginilah kami akhirnya.

nak masukkan gmbar awal2 perkenalan kami.. & gmbar pada 28 October 2011. :)

i'm HOME...!!

2011-10-24T11:36:00.000+08:00

yeayyy..! home at last. & will be at home for a week. ^__^

but err. err.. its not like the usual holiday actually. i have to help my parents to pack up stuffs & start moving out. & i also have to do my assignments. :)

so, happy holiday everybody...!!

kawan kawan. jom beli tudung

2011-10-22T13:26:00.003+08:00

hello kekawannn..
jom tengok tudung kat page eqa & kakak.
ni.. page ni ZAMRO's Hijab.. datang la tgk. mane taw ade yg berkenan kan...?
ade jenis2 tudung yg menjadi idaman kalbu remaja sekarang. hee~
datang tengok taw... ^__^

mid-semester holiday

2011-10-20T17:54:00.001+08:00

yeayyy..! next week is our mid-sem holiday. & yeayyy again. i'll be home for a week..!

so, last week on thursday & friday, i had my very first tests in UPM. so far both test were OK. i mean, alhamdulillah i can do it even-though i was not really study for both subjects. & last Monday, i had my Bahasa Melayu Tinggi test. yaaa. im a Malay. for sure i can do it well kannn..? but nay... i was not doing well. & why? because early topics were not about the grammar & so on. it's about theory and history. & my brain, they cannot do well in remembering things. but they can do very very well in calculations. how on earth are you going to remember so many facts in a time? & all the theories & facts are slightly the same...??? arghhh.. its just not suit for me. no at all. we had our discussion yesterday about the test in class. but i was not really remeber what were my answers for those questions. but. hurmm.. its ok. it just a test. & there are lots more things that be done to increase the marks. kannn..?

so, this holiday, its not really a holiday actually. 'coz i have tons of assignment to be done by the end of this holiday. err err.. xpe, to achieve ur ambitions, sacrifice is needed. yeahhh. ;)

tomorrow, i am going to skip one class. because my mom asked to. hehehe.. my mom & dad will be going to kL b'coz my mom have to attend a course. so, there is nobody in Melaka. & my parents ask me to go to kL with them. & so, i have to skip one class la. huu~ my very first 'PONTENG' class for this semester.

& ok. that is all from me. so.. till then. bubye everybody. & last but not least.. HAPPY HOLIDAY DEAR FRIENDS..!!! ^__^

saat ini

2011-10-17T11:39:00.000+08:00

saat ni, rasa nak pegi kat tepi pantai yang tade orang atau tepi tasik yang tade orang atau atas bukit atau atas gunung. sebab nak menjerit sekuat hati. nak menangis sepuas-puasnya. dengan harapan semua yang membelenggu diri keluar dari badan melalui jeritan & tangisan yang sehabis boleh tu.

sebab sekarang ni, semua tengah berbuku dalam diri. tak boleh nak keluarkan. so, nak pegi tempat2 yang sedemikian. i need it. badly.

suffocating

2011-10-17T11:30:00.001+08:00

ya Allah. terasa diri sangat la dalam keadaan yang suffocate giler. ade benda yang berbuku dalam hati. ade benda yang tak mampu diluahkan. tersangat suffocating sekarang ni.

ade je benda yang tak kena. bler nak buat sumthing, laen yang jadi. mmg tak boleh nak focus lgsg.

dada terasa sakit. sebu. tak mampu nak meluahkan. sbb masih ade hati yang perlu dijaga.

ya Allah, tiada lain yang ku pinta dari-Mu, cuma berikanlah ketabahan dan ketenangan hati. aku pohon pada-Mu. kuatkanlah aku dalam menempuhi segalanya. bantulah aku ya Allah.

senyumku

2011-10-16T17:45:00.000+08:00

*yokk.. berpuitis sebentar. mentang2 amek subjek Penglahiran Bakat Kreatif kannnnnnnnnnn.. huhu

senyumku
ada yang plastik
ada yang original
ada yang masam
ada yang manis

senyumku
aku ukirkan jua di bibirku
walau hati terasa walang
aku calitkan jua di wajahku
walau hati penuh calar
ada rasa membelenggu jiwa
tapi ku kuatkan jua diri
demi secebis senyuman
suka walau duka
manis walau pahit

senyum itu sedekah
kata-kata itu
aku pegang
biar pahit bagai hempedu
aku tetap akan mengukir senyum
senyum itu
aku tahu
mampu melenyap duka lara.

kenapa?

2011-10-16T15:44:00.003+08:00

hari ini hari AHAD

2011-10-16T12:25:00.000+08:00

AHAD adalah satu-satunye hari untuk eqa bangun lambat sepanjang kat UPM. hehehe.. sbb isnin sampai sabtu. semua nye ade kelas. so, AHAD the one & the only day yang eqa boleh berbuat sedemikian. hehe

hari ini hari AHAD. tade aktiviti pon. tapi jap lagi nak study. esok ade test. nak turun makan pon rasa malas je akibat daripada kedudukan bilik yang tggi, berbukit-bukau dan seumpamanya. hehehe.. jap2 lagi je la turun kann..

tapi kan. seriously, tade mood nak study. tataw knpe. maybe since last nite pon da mmg tade mood, then terbawa2 sampai skarang. haihhh.. mood. datang la berlumba2 kpda saya. sbb ssaya perlukan awak. cepat lah ye datang berlumba2. :)

yeayyy.. 6 hari lagi nak mula cuti mid-sem..! seminggu tuuuu. then masuk balik campus. pastu balik lagi sbb raya haji. knpe la dorang tak sambung je cuti tu. kan berlipat ganda best nye. huhu.

& saya merindui seseorang. smalam tgk movie, ade plak actor yang ade iras ngan dier. then buat saya makin rindu. hurmmm.. takpe lah. nanti2 boleh jumpa. kannn..?

so, ini aje cerita untuk ari AHAD ini. sekian. wassalam...

malam ini

2011-10-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

malam ini
duduk ku sendiri
memecah sunyi malam
memujuk diri, memujuk hati
dan kini
sendiri lagi melayan hati
sendiri lagi termangu sepi
sendiri lagi berlagu pilu
tanpa ada rasa jemu
rasa itu sering hadir
menemani diri.

seringku pujuk hati,
janganlah kau bersedih
seringku pujuk diri,
janganlah kau menangis
tapi, sering aku memujuk..
makin ia merobek, menikam kalbu
menusuk ke dalam
jauh ke dalam

telah puas ku pujuk
tidak ia beransur reda
terasa sakit
sakit yang berulang kali ku rasakan
sakit yang tak pernah hilang
sakit yang hadir tanpa ada rasa jemu

biarlah
aku yang rasa
sakit pahit getir jiwa itu
kerna ku tahu
ada pelangi selepas hujan.

homesick

2011-10-13T21:09:00.000+08:00

i dun care what people wanna say. yes. i am 22 y/o. yes, i've been staying away from my family since my secondary school. then my diploma. & now my degree. yes, i've been staying far far away from them before this. & yes.. i still feel the homesick-fever. & seriously, i dun care what people wanna say about me.

im not a spoiled children. nayyy.. im not. tapi ntah. masih ade rasa rindu, homesick bagai. i just wanna be near with my family. looking at them everyday. hurmmm..

but... nak berjaya, kne lah hadap benda2 macam ni. kannn..? so.. marilah berusaha.

a day out with a friend

2011-10-11T23:22:00.003+08:00

last Thursday, i went out with my talkative friend :). let me introduce her to you. her name is Tuan Nor Azani bt Sy Mustafa. i've known her since my Diploma. we were graduated from the same uni & the same course. so, here we meet again. & befriend again. she comes from Terengganu.

ok ok. last Thursday we went out. we went to The Mines. yang banyak bershopping nye si Zani la. huu~ & ktorang g la jugak maen bowling & karoke. zani ni plak, mmg tak la kan nak berkaroke. tapi i forced her to do so. haha.. melayan jugakkk dier tuh. kan zani kann..? & she rarely plays bowling tapi ntah macam mane boleh strike la plak kan. siap ade spare lagi. huhu~ congratz zani. muahahaha

err.. eqa tawu zani ni mmg tak bukak pon blog eqa ni. tapi takpe la. nak cerita jugakkk.. ^_^..

ni ade sikit gambo. tak bnyk pon. because zani was busy bershopping. huhu...

ni lah zani.. ^_^

duit

2011-10-08T22:33:00.000+08:00

duit. hidup mmg tapenah lepas dgn masalah duit. yang orang2 dari keluarga berada uh, mmg tade penat kpla nak pk pasal duit nih. sbb dorang sentiasa berduit. & hurmm..

mmg la duit tu tak mampu beli kebahagiaan. tp duit tu.. sgt diperlukan untuk hidup kat zaman sekarang ni. nak makan, nak minum, nak mandi, nak ade elektrik, nak ade segulung ijazah, nak spm. & ape ape lagi la. smua nak kne duit. haihh..

skarang ni plak. rasa macam down. sbb ptptn dapat sikit je. tak dapat full. half pon tak dapat. hurmm. bukan lah ape. tp tanak nyusahkan mak ayah sbenarnya. mak ayah pon nak gna duit untuk benda2 lain. mmg la mak ayah cakap takpe, dorang boleh bayar yuran wutsoever. tapiii. hurmmm. tanak bebankan dorang da. hurmmm.. rasa macam nak stop blaja.

maybe skarang mmg perlu berjimat drpd segala bnda pon. kos sara hidup skarang pon da tggi. hurmm.. takpe la. insyaAllah, eqa buat yang terbaik. untuk semua pengorbanan mak ayah. insyaAllah akan buat yang terbaik untuk dorang. this is the least yg eqa boleh buat skarang. insyaAllah. doakan lah eqa.

the immature creature.. perhapsssss

2011-10-06T20:50:00.001+08:00

:)
& the award goes to....... ME.. huhu..
eh.. mane ade la. i am matured ok, mentally & physically.
just terlebih manja. ngade ngade yg amat. dan sgt meluatkannn..
huu.. kannnn..?
whoever knows me, the close one i mean. they know how annoying i can be.

gambar saje saje.

2011-10-05T18:03:00.000+08:00

shutting down.
deactivating.
deleting.
& everything.

a post to myself

2011-10-05T17:22:00.001+08:00

i am already in a miserable situation. where .. yaaa. i have to face it all. by my own self. coz no one could help. & yess. it is my problems. so, need to face it alone.

hurmm.. as we know, life will never stay at the same level. kannn..? so, here i am facing up my DUKA PAHIT SUSAH PAYAH moments. so, my wheels went down.

eqa. ingt.. yg pertama skali, gembirakan mak ayah dlu. study rajin2, tolak semua masalah ke tepi. dapatkan pointer yg baik. jadi org yg berjaya. balas balik jasa mak ayah. itu bnda pertama. yang lain2.. biar Allah aturkan. though u have ur own plan. sentiasa beringt.. awak hnya merancang. tp Allah jua yg menentukan. ingt.. awak kne focus kat tempat blaja awak. ingt tu selalu. keluarga kne diutamakan. susah senang awak, keluarga jugak yg support awak.

hurmm.. mak ayah, doakan yg terbaik untuk orang. kakak, hurmm.. if u read this. tlg doakan yg terbaik utk ak. k..?

p/s : tolonglah jgn macam ni lagi.

i am who i am

2011-10-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

yess.. i am who i am. i wont easily change for sumthing yg tak masuk akal. or maybe it does make sense for some people, but maybe it is just not for me.

i know myself, & yes.. i know myself better than others. maybe there is a saying like "people who sees you daily, knows the best about you". as for me, no it isn't. & y not,...? because, they only see the outside of me, they do not know the inside me, my heart, my feelings, my real attitude. no, they don't know me like i do. ok..?

why i have to change..? do i have to change to make people happy? & how's mine...? do i have to fight, to have conflict with my OWN self..? do i..? nayyy..! i know who i am. i know what to do. i know how to take care of myself. though sometimes my decision is not sumthing yang BIJAK, but let me face the risk. so that i will know how it feels by my own. let i face it, let me have the experience. & hey, we do learn from experience kan..?

ntah la. sometimes, it puts me in a guilt situation actually. where i have to make a choice between my own decision & people decision. so, i have conflict with my own self there. *when u have conflict dgn diri sendri, that's the time where u have to meet the counselor* ..

hurmmm.. but then, i have to mind myself. i am who i am. if sumthing happens, & u need to do sumthing bout it, & u know that u are the kind of the person that will do anything, & U KNOW WHO YOU ARE. then just do. why bothering urself with people's thinking. as long as i know what im doing is not giving me any harm secara lahiriah or insaniah, then just do. Allah knows ur intention well than people do. so, biar Allah yang mengadilinya.

no, do not stop me from doing sumthing yang da mmg diri saya. yg secara lahiriah dan insaniah nye, itulah saya. no, jgn lah buat saya berhenti. even now, i am doing my best to be a better Muslim. i am trying the best of me even sumtimes there are few mistakes here & there either its intentionally or unintentionally. but i am trying. maybe the things that people are trying to stop me to do are sumthing good that are naturally come from me. & maybe that are the only good thing yang saya mampu buat sebagai seorang insan kat muka bumi ni wallahualam.

p/s : moga petunjuk Allah sentiasa ada untuk saya. insyaAllah.

mi familia

2011-10-04T19:15:00.001+08:00

they are my Jantung Hati.
without them. i am nothing.
without them. i am dead.

love them with all of my heart.

p/s : ya Allah, protect them from any harm, from any diseases. make them happy & give them a good health. aminnn

look alike

2011-09-30T20:31:00.000+08:00

ok.. macam ni cerita nye. daripada awal masuk UPM ni la kan. few yg jumpa eqa. then borak borak. they said like this
"eh.. muka akak ni macam muka artis la"
"err.. sape plak..?"
"macam Dira. Dira abu zahar tu"
~.~'' dabel sweat. hahaha

seriously...? ade iras kahh..? dun think so la. jauh kottttt.. me look prettier.. HAHAHAHA. *ye, saya masuk bakul angkat sendiri* ^__^

tak cukup ngan Dira abu zahar tuh. ade gak cakap muka eqa macam Adira Af8. ade ke patut...?

then.. used to hear from few people too. before masuk UPM nih. time skola & time UDM dlu kannn.. they said muka eqa macam Ngasriah Ngasri also known as Anne. huhuhu..

haihhhh laaaa.. macam macam la kannn..? dorang yg kopipes muka eqa. bukan eqa k. hehehe.

imma student..!

2011-09-29T15:33:00.000+08:00

rasa nya, its been few posts yang eqa bercakap pasal eqa ni plajar kannn..? huhu.. bior la. nak cakap gak lagiii..

so, my life as a student. againnn.. hurmm.. its quite ok i guess. i have my friends here. ZANI especially nye. my talkative friend. huhu.. she is in the same course as mine. MIZAH is in B.A. English Literature. ouhh & we are not in the same college (blok dekat je pon) muahaha.. so, setiap hari g class dengan Zani. though few classes we're not in the same group but our classes are in the same time. so, g la same same kan. mizah je la. ade satu class je kot yang same dgn dier.

& we are the oldest kot untuk batch ni. HAHAHA.. tapi takpe. mostly cakap eqa cam 19 jew.. *haha..bangga nih*

basically everything is ok. my subjects.. those are subjects yang mmg da blaja masa diploma dlu. ade yang dapat exemption, yang laen tuh.. harus lahhhhh diambil. huhu.. insyaAllah... untuk degree ni.. tade da maen2 masa diploma dlu. i'll do my best. & all i think is my parents. i know i have to do something for them. & having a degree, make them proud with my results. that are maybe the best thing i can do for them.. for now.

so, doakan lah kejayaan eqa. & eqa doakan jugak kejayaan untuk rakan2 sekalian k. insyaAllah.

notakaki : mak ayah, i'll do this for both of you k. i'll make sure that i will. eh no. i must do the best. thanx for everything. thanx for raising me up. thanx for all the sacrifices u have done for me. thanx. & orang minta maaf untuk semua salah orang. minta maaf sbb menjadi anak yang bnyk buat salah, kadang2 ter'derhaka'. minta maaf mak ayah. doakan kejayaan orang k. i love both of you.

hey 28th..!

2011-09-28T12:47:00.001+08:00

heyya...! its 28th of the month. :)

to mista Bunchet..
happy 22nd month bunchet...
another 2 months to make it officially 2 years.
wow.. so many 2 huhh..? huhu

err.. i know, im not doing this at 12 sharp in the midnight.
but trust me. i want. but i waited for u last nite.
u know kannn.. since bergelar STUDENT ni.. i always sleep early. kannn..?
so.. i cant hold my eyes to keep it open till midnight. & type a post.
or wait for u the whole night.
but what can i do. u didn't make any move.
& I WAS THE ONE WHO WISHED IT FIRST..
baek kann i..???
even we were in some complicated situation this morning.
huhuhu..

hey BUNCHET..!
thanx for everything. thanx for being there whenever & wherever i need u.
thanx for soothing me when im down.
thanx for being patient with my silly, immature attitude.
thanx a lot.
for everything that i will never ever can repay.
we are so different. kannn..?

with words, its never enough to show the real love kan..?
my act pon, its never enough to make u believe that i love u kan..?
but, trust me.
i love u.
& i know, that feeling is there since the first time i met u.
& i still can remember all the memories at there.
& how i feel when i saw u. how i got jealous when i saw u with others.
& how silly i am to have a feeling for a stranger. for someone i never met before.
& i always thought that i was dreaming. to have u as mine.
& i feel like a fairy tale.
:)

err.. panjang da rasanye. huu~
last...!!!
I LOVE YOU MISTA BUNCHET...!!!

the TOO

2011-09-24T22:18:00.005+08:00

don't trust TOO much
don't love TOO much
don't hope TOO much
because that TOO much can hurt u so much..

there is a time

2011-09-24T21:45:00.000+08:00

there is a time or situation where u will be alone. some will say they will be by urside wherever or whenever u need them. but.. it is not all the time.

& i am facing it. where i have to confront it on my own.

when u need someone, he/she rarely there for u. but when they need u, u will always do ur best for them. life is unfair kan?

i am 22 y/o

2011-09-19T14:34:00.002+08:00

i am 22 years old..!!
hepi birthday to me.
:)

i want to celebrate my birthday with my families & mr. Bunchet.
tapi pagi2 lagi mak da col.
mak nyanyikan lagu besday.
then ayah plak.
huu~
tgh malam td, masa tdo..
mR. bunchet called & wished me.
huu~ tapi tade kesempatannya.

& today. on my birthday.
a million thanks to my room-mates.
tersangat-sangat berterima kasih untuk cake.
& the surprise.
thanx sangat akak2 bilik yg super duper cool.
yang blakon tak hengat dunia. huhu
terpedaya eqa auwww..
thanx sgt sgt..!!!
^_^

a note to myself : i am supposedly act matured than before. think matured than before. i am 22 y/o. & i am supposedly have to stand on my own without relying on others. insyaAllah.

bler hati kat umah

2011-09-18T21:37:00.001+08:00

so, tadi bertolak dari melaka dalam kol 5 ptg. then kereta mmg bnyk giler la kan all the way nak ke seremban uh. dari bandar da bnyk kereta da.

dalam kereta, kepala otak & hati still kat umah. huu~ berat hati mehhhh.. nak bawah ketiak mak & ayah. mak ayah..!! SAYANG SANGAT KAT MAK AYAH TAW..!!!

ok ok.. bukan itu yang nak diceritakan. tadi sampai kat stesen KTM seremban dalam 6 lebih. so...
me : ke seremban satu
abg kaunter : ehh.. jangan la main main
me : mane de main2. nak ke seremban la..
tetibaaa
me : eh.. jap jap. salah. nak ke serdang.. *malu gilakkk*
abg kaunter : ni da bgn tido ke belom?
hahahahaha..
memang giler kannn..?? adeh laaa. eqa eqaaa.. sewel sungguh anda ni..

dalam train.. ya Allah. mampat. macam sardin. sardin pon ade ruang2. huhu. sampai serdang da kol 8 kott.. then tggu bus UPM plak. then balik ostel.. thennnnnn.. ostel takde air...!!! haihhh...

takpe la. itu kisah siswi buat masa ini. hehe.. bersambung lagi yurppp.. tata..!

eh jap.. zani dapat masuk UPM..!!!!

the WE, the US.

2011-09-18T14:35:00.001+08:00

i love you. & there will be no full-stop.

sekali lagi

2011-09-18T14:14:00.001+08:00

bubye melaka.
hello serdang. hurmmm

berat hati je rasa nak balik. huu~
tp akan cuba balik jugak. takpe la.
melaka - serdang. tak jauh da kan.
lagipon nak settlekan ptptn nnti.

so, lepas ni. jarang sket la nak meng'update' blog.
al-maklum la. wifi uni kann.
maka, jgn la marah kalo blog ini sepi.

kepada awak.
maafkan saya kerna tak mampu memenuhi permintaan awak.

new chapter of life

2011-09-17T10:32:00.003+08:00

hollaa everybody. its been a longgggggggggg time since my last post, kannn...?? so, here i am no. updating my new life. my new chapter of life.

so, as u know, in my last post, it was stated there that i am furthering my study in UPM. ok.. i am taking Bac. in English Linguistic. course ni sbenarnye.. same je ngan TESL dlu.. but, right now, i am trying to change my course. nak amek TESL balik. so, doakan lah saya berjaya menukar course. ok..?

my orientation days. sbb ade 4 hari je orientasi nye. huu~ ok la kot. just.. yaaa.. i was homesick. haha. sengal jaa kann..? umah takde lah jauh macam masa study kat terengganu dlu. but heyy.. homesick is still homesick, okkkk..?

my 1st week in UPM, it was ok. UPM is not like UDM, where i could just walk to here & there but in UPM i have to get on the bus. & mostly everything is on my own. its one way of being independent kan.. huhu.. berdikari la sangat. insyaAllah.

now saya kat rumah. tapi esok da balik UPM. & maybe after 5 weeks baru boleh balik. sbb every Saturday i have to attend my Koku class. balik yg lagi 5 weeks tu pon sbb cuti sem. nasib baek umah dekat. huhuhu..

so.. tu je la kot wat masa ni. byeee..

pssstt : doakan saya berjaya di UPM. :)

UPM

2011-09-07T02:04:00.001+08:00

i am going there.
UPM..
hurmm..
mix feelings.

Ya Allah, permudahkan jalan yang ku akan lalui. aminnn..

p/s : awak jangan nakal2 ye sayang. i love u. gonna miss my life at home. gonna miss my mom & dad.wee~ cam bebudak kann..? agak laaa.. :)

study time.

2011-09-05T12:56:00.000+08:00

ouhh no. its coming. 1 day left. & its on the day after tomorrow. i haven't pack anything yet. i haven't prepare anything yet including myself. huhu

yesterday, i was anxious. thinking about this & that. what should i bring, what should i do, is there anything else that i haven't fill up. how am i going to start a new day at there. how this & that, what this & that. & everything. & yesterday, when i was thinking about this, suddenly i felt nervous. huu~ my heart started beating faster than ever. ya la. its been a year i didn't do anything. my brain hadn't function well. kannn..? so, im a bit scared pon ade jugakkk.

sooooo, i have to make a move right now. start to gather all the stuffs, & pack them up into the luggage.. & do pray for me yaaa. huhu.

my raya.. :)

2011-09-04T16:57:00.000+08:00

my raya this year. it was so-so. ^_^. i'm no longer little girl kan.. so, raya is something yang biasa biasa aja la kot. no more eager feeling for raya. exception for MAKAN.. hehehe..

& eager to meet my big families. because raya is the only time for us to gather & meet each other. not the only time la. but u know la how it feels when u & ur big families celebrate something together kannn..? so, i was eager to meet them. & today... they are back to their hometown.

& im counting for the next time for us to gather again.

so, i'll put some picture here. & the rest of the picture. u can see it in my facebook. but.. maybe i'll update them a bit late. wee~

p/s : me & my cuzzies... we LOVE to take pictures. lot of them. huhu

eidul fitri

2011-09-02T11:53:00.001+08:00

wahhh.. tgk kat fB, ramai je yg da upload gmbo raya. huu~ takpe lah. untuk eqa.. i will celebrate raya till puas, da amek gmbo puas2, then baru sumbat dalam fB. hehehe..
kannnnn...?? baru syiokkkk habis. huhu

so, 1st sampai 3rd raya, eqa & family raya kat Selangor. kat Bandar Sunway. taw katne..? alaaaa.. yg dekat ngan Sunway Pyramid uh. jalan kaki je da sampai. huhu~ masa kat Selangor uh, ada lah berhari raya kat umah2 sdare kat Damansara, Puchong, err. Klang. hah.. tu la. puas beraya kat highway. huhu.. ^_^

so, untuk raya tahun ni, i will hold sampai la camera uh da penuh memory nye. wee~

& petang ni plak, nak gerak g Batu Pahat. umah paklong plak.... actually, umah sdare2 yg dekat ni tak beraya lagi. haha.. takpe, they can wait. ^_^

till then.. bubye sayang sayang semua.

Happy Eid everyone..!

2011-08-29T12:19:00.001+08:00

hello everyone..!
tomorrow raya sudahhh..!
:)
so, i would like to use this opportunity *as im not going to online for few days starting this evening* to wish all of you a Happy Eidul Fitri.
im sorry for my wrong-doings, for my bad words, for my bad attitude, for my lack of concerns & for everything i had done intentionally or unintentionally. im sorry.
have a nice Syawal everyone. wish you prosperity on the Muslims' big day as we had successfully got through over a challenging month.

Selamat Hari Raya
Maaf Zahir & Batin...!!

21st

2011-08-28T04:00:00.001+08:00

happy
21st
month

:)

feel like

2011-08-25T16:51:00.003+08:00

i feel like deactivating EVERYTHING.
including my LIFE.
can i?

ya Allah, i am begging You, give me strength & patience. only that.

it doesn't matter

2011-08-25T15:42:00.000+08:00

it doesn't matter anymore.
things happen for a reason. tears eventually fade & one day everything will be exactly how it is supposed to be.
moving on is a process & i have to promise myself that i am really ready to let go.

it doesn't matter anymore.
just.. i don't want to think bout it anymore. 'coz it drives me crazy. crazy enough to ruin everything.
i am giving up to take care of everything. gave up caring bout what people think. gave up caring bout what people feel. gave up caring bout what people say.

& it doesn't matter anymore.

subuh yang hening

2011-08-25T05:56:00.000+08:00

masih belum merehatkan diri.
masih belum merehatkan otak.
masih lagi terjaga di subuh yang hening.

hurmm..
wish everything works well.
wish i have a better life onward.
wish Allah will always help me.
wish i am strong enough to face the reality.
wish i cud stop dreaming & accept the reality.
wish i cud stop wishing.
& live with the flow.

sometimes, i need a rest.
from everything.
from living.
hurmm

jom bercerita

2011-08-25T03:30:00.001+08:00

shud be telling this story to someone. takpe lah. citer kat cni je la. :)

siang tadi masa tgh syok online, tiba2 ade dgr mende jatuh. tol2 kat sbelah. then tgk2 ade ulat bulu. beso lak uh. masalahnya, tgkap tutup. dier panjat ke ek? ~.~'

bler da nampak dier kat ctu, g la amek surat kabar. then buang dier kuar dari tgkap. huhu..

petang plak, g berbuka kat eQ. ngan family. :)

malam pulak... tgk on9 lagik. letak lappy atas box. pas uh kan. tgk dok meraba kat tepi box uh. box uh macam ade lekuk. so, tak nampak la ape mnde kat lekuk uh. then masa dok meraba uh, terasa sumthing yg macam berbulu. da lam kepala otak.."ni mesti kaen pape yg terjuntai nih". bler alihkan tgn je. ade mende jatuh. bler dok belek.. perghhhh.. ulat bulu..!!! mane datang..?!

then, g la amek surat kabo, kaut dier. pastu branikan diri bukak tgkap. campak dier keluar. hee~

nasib baek la tgn tak gatal2. da la siap maen2 kan jari bler ingt mnde uh kaen yg terjuntai. huhu..

ulat bulu. kok ye pon. jgn la men sembunyi2 macam tu lagi ye. :)

ps : its going to rain. & so do my heart. but plz dun.

rabun O rabun

2011-08-24T13:50:00.000+08:00

smalam g check mata sbb nak buat spec baru. ok. before ni power mata.
kanan : 350
kiri : 325

sikalanggg punya power
kanan : 300
kiri : 375

err errr.. pe cer ni..? knpe power mata kanan turun. kiri naek? huhuhu..
pelik sungguh nih. ~.~'

ade sape sape tau cara nak turunkan power mata..? tanak pakai spec lagi la. huhu
kalo ade sape sape tau. silalah berkongsi caranya ye. :)

usahawati :)

2011-08-23T00:32:00.000+08:00

wee~ trying to do something new. kecil-kecilan ajaa. insyaAllah, kalo ade rezki, bleh la buat besar-besaran. ye dak..?
hehehe..
so, eqa ngan kakak try nak jual tudung. sila tgk di SINI..

some picca.. :)

bokeh

2011-08-22T15:19:00.000+08:00

yeahh..!! just now i am successfully learned how to create a bokeh effect using photoshop..!!
congratulation to me.. hehe..
ni dua gmbar yang berjaya di'BOKEH'kan.
saya baru blajar kan. so, gambar tade la nak perfect mane pon. pape pon. hepi gilakkk..!!
^__^

one more thing.. nak photoshop lightroom laa.

melaka-seremban-Jalan TAR & melaka

2011-08-21T19:44:00.002+08:00

semalam pergi Jalan TAR. dengan kakak, abg nadzri & si Bunchet.
dari Melaka gerak ke Seremban dgn kak linda. sbb dier pon nak ke Jalan TAR. dgn tunangnya. tapi dorang nak benti kat Seremban je sbb dorang nak naek train. ktorang gerak dalam 8 lebih. so, kat Seremban uh eqa ngan Bunchet tukar kereta plak. bermula la perjalanan ke Jalan TAR.

around noon jugak la baru sampai sane. jammed tayah citer la kan. da name pon Kuala Lumpur. then, berjalan-jalan lah kami kat Jalan TAR uh. actually ade gak planned ngan yeen nak jumpa kat sane. dier col, dier cakap dalam 2 lebih baru gerak. then masa dier da sampai uh. eqa ngan yg laen nak gerak balik da. huu~ tak larat da wehhh.. ngan bersesak2 nye kat sane. panas lagi. puasa lagi. huhu.. tak larat tak larat.

masa kat Jalan TAR uh. eqa ngan akk carik tudung. nak bli borong. nak buat jual. hee~ nnti eqa masukkan gmbo tudung ea. kalo nak beli. gtau eqa auwww.. ^_^. ade gak bli barang2 untuk mak & ayah. nak blikan untuk mak lagi satu barang tp tak jumpa. so, mak... nanti kiter carik kat Melaka je la ea. hee.

lepas g Jalan TAR, g Bangi plak. cuba gak carik baju untuk mak kat bazar & kat PKNS Bangi. tapi tade jugak. lepas uh. terusssss ke tempat nak berbuka. kat Village View. berbuka la kami kat sane. lepas berbuka gerak ke Seremban plak. anta abg nadzri kat KTM. then, tggu kak linda plak. col kak linda. kak linda cakap dier kat umah kak ita. kakak pon drive la ke Senawang. actually umah kak ita dgn kakak dkat je. so, senang je la kakak nak balik.

dalam kol 11 lebih, gerak ke melaka pulakk. balik umah kan. salin je baju. terus tdo. huhu.. giler penat. sampai sahur pon terbangun kol 5.20 pg. so. itu la cerita semalam.

ni plak sedikit gmbo. :)

shopping jom

2011-08-20T02:54:00.000+08:00

heyya everybody..!! how are u?

hari ini. i mean pagi ni nnti. nak gerak g seremban. g ke tempat kakak. then nak g Jalan TAR...
shopping mariiiiii..
hehe..
yok yok..
kte jumpa d sana yaaa..
^_^

imperfect

2011-08-17T22:50:00.001+08:00

no one is perfect in this world. never claim urself as a perfect person. u may have a perfect body shape, a beautiful face, knowledgeable. but do u really think that all that stuffs really make u a perfect person? think twice, think thrice. think again & again.

owkehh..?

hai obat..

2011-08-17T01:20:00.001+08:00

skarang dok umah, ade la jugak orang yg nak ingtkan makan ubat.
bukan ingtkan through mulut ok.
ini terus datang depan muka ubat tuh.
"nah makan ni"
huhu~ mmg tade alasan da nak lari.
ayah ayahh.
nnti da sambung blaja.
sape nak ingtkan mkan ubat lagi.
kalo advice pakai mulut, mmg tak jalan la kan..
adehh laaa.

3 days in a row

2011-08-15T23:22:00.001+08:00

3 days in a row berbuka kat luar. huhuhu..
ari sabtu kat mahkota century hotel.
ari ahad kat holiday inn.
yang 2 ari ni g berbuka dgn families.
ari ni kat kedai makan sahabat. huu~
makan dgn sahabat sahabat.
tqa red & mazs mok. ^__^
mmg lariiii la diet nih.
*diet la sgt. hahaha*

so, thanks to Allah sbb bagi rezeki yg macam ni di bulan puasa.
alhamdulillah.

feel like a kid

2011-08-14T02:09:00.001+08:00

why ea..? feel like a kid skarang ni. huhu
setiap malam ayah akan panggil macam ni.
"adek, nah"
"ape tu ayah"
ayah hulurkan tangan
"alaaaa. ayah ni."

ayah menghulurkan sebiji pill.
adehsss..
& kne la makan pill tuh.

baru tanak mengamalkan bnda uh.
tapi da kne pksa balik.
mmg tapenah nk ingt pon makan pill uh.
slalu da mak ayah dok bising2.
last last ayah guna cara tu je.
huhu..
mmg tableh lari da kan.
haihhh...

ya Allah.

2011-08-13T06:32:00.002+08:00

ya Allah ya Rabb,
aku memohon petunjuk daripada Mu.
berikanlah hamba Mu ini petunjuk.
moga ada jalan di sebalik dinding kebal itu.
moga ada sinar di sebalik kegelapan itu.
moga ada manis di sebalik taburan garam.

ya Allah ya Rahman ya Rahim,
sesungguhnya, Engkau sahaja yang mampu membantu.
semoga aku ketemu jalannya, sinarnya dan manisnya.
aminnn.

myself

2011-08-12T06:43:00.004+08:00

i have to take care of my own feelings.
its only me & me.

& yes.
i have Allah.
to guide me.
to help me whenever i'm in sorrow.
i have my families.
to cheer me up.
to support me in anything.

enough is enough.
everyone has their own limitation.
so do i.
& its over the limit.
& i cant handle it anymore.
so. i need a fullstop.
no more comma.

ya Allah, make me strong enough to deal with my life. ameen.

p/s : i may need a "happy" pills. lots &amp; lots of it. & anti-depression pills might help.

semalam

2011-08-11T14:04:00.004+08:00

semalam g kuar berbuka dgn si bunchet & his friends, riez & ap.
:)
dapat jugak berbuka dengan dier. wee~!
lepas berbuka uh, g tgk wayang plak.
'rise of the planet of the apes.'
err. seat dier plak 3 rows from front.
mmg kaw kaw punyer mata tgk wayang.
huhuhu..
dalam tu jugak da kne sakit kpla.
around 11 jugak la baru sampai umah.
& hopefully la kannn..
before masuk uni nnti.
dapat spend some time with him lagi.

expect the unexpected

2011-08-09T21:39:00.001+08:00

i never expect u to come into my life.
neither expecting that u will enter my heart.
all i know is that
i LOVE u.
right from the start.

i still can remember our first met.
& how i feel when looking at u for the first time.
& how i get jealous when i saw u with another girl.
its crazy kann..?
get jealous with sumone who has no relation at all.
huhuhu..
ye. mmg giler.
but its ok.

i know that u have the same feeling.
^__^
love u.

dull night

2011-08-09T03:02:00.000+08:00

its a dull night tonight. so dull.

brighter day for tomorrow perhaps.
hurmm..

when someone needs/finds u, u always there for them.
but when u need them, u can count on ur finger how many times they come to u.
kannnn..?
so, pekate..
we try to do the same thing like they did to us.
lets see. how they will react towards us.
its not a revenge.
its a test maybe.
~.^

"what u give, u get back."
i took it from a novel. i cant remember the title.
but, the author uses it in the novel.
it has the same meaning as KARMA.
kannnn...???
i believe that Allah has His own ways.
to make people realizes their faultiness.

tak diragui

2011-08-06T16:35:00.004+08:00

eh. ape yg tak diragui nye tu..? huhu.. ni. peribahasa ni. "bapa borek, anak rintik"..
diakui benar..! haha.. kenape ea..?

ok.. tadi col abang, nak gtaw pasal sumthing. then dier nak balik malam ni. so, here goes the conversation:-

me : abang, balik malam ni kan..? nnti akk col, ko deal ngan dier pasal nak balik malam ni ea.
abang : knpe..? dier nak balik ke..? knpe tak balik smalam?
me : sbb kakak bengong. td dier g Jalan TAR. so, balik malam ni ngan ko. deal ngan dier bawak satu keta je. jnji kat mane2.
abang : ok. nnti suruh dier col ak
me : hah..! nak balik malam ni kan.. nnti beli pape ea untuk ak.
abang : hah..? ape dier..? hello. hello. tak dengar la..
me : haha.. kuangjo.. saje je ea.
abang : tak dengar la..
me : haha.. takpe ar. ko mmg. da da.. nnti ko deal ngan kakak je.

ok. ape yg peribahasa diakui sah di sini.. emphasizing the part..
me : hah..! nak balik malam ni kan.. nnti beli pape ea untuk ak.abang : hah..? ape dier..? hello. hello. tak dengar la..**
me : haha.. kuangjo.. saje je ea.
abang : tak dengar la..

chaittt..! same giler dgn ayah kot. kalo ayah pon, time eqa mintak barang. camtu la dier wat. wat2 tak dengar la. bukak cerita laen la. adehsss..huhu.. abang abang..

mimpi

2011-08-03T23:47:00.000+08:00

sayer asik bermimpi. mimpi mimpi sayer semuanya indah sejak dua menjak ni. rasa macam biler bermimpi uh kan. nak terus je hidup dalam mimpi uh. tanak bangun bangun da. & if kalo terjaga pon, nak tido balik. nak sambung balik mimpi. huhu.. eh.. tapi penah je rasanyer, bler bermimpi, terbangun then tido balik & sambung bermimpi. hahaha.. sampai kadang kadang an, bler tersedar dari tidur, bibir sedang mengukir senyuman yang sangat bahagia. huu~ lepas uh, cepat cepat cover balik. haha

ye. mimpi memang banyak yang indah. tapi.. haruslah sedar dari mimpi dan hidup di bumi yang nyata.
hidup di bumi yang nyata, ade je yang indah kan...?
kalo yang rasa rasa macam tak indah uh, jadikan je lah pengajaran.

psssstt.. nak mimpi mimpi indah lagi. :)

ahlan wasahlan ya ramadhan

2011-07-31T16:54:00.004+08:00

selamat berpuasa kepada semua sanak saudara, rakan rakan, dan semua kaum muslimin dan muslimat.
alhamdulillah, masih berkesempatan untuk berpuasa dan menjalani ibadah puasa.

selamat berpuasa semua...!!
^_^

i miss you

2011-07-29T04:24:00.000+08:00

i miss you..
i miss your random messages.
i miss your good morning messages.
i miss your teasing.
i miss your laugh.
i miss your smile.
i miss to stare at you.
i miss everything about you.
i miss all the things we used to do.
&
i miss you.
lots & lots of love sayang.
:)

in the mood

2011-07-29T00:53:00.003+08:00

while i am in the mood of updating my blog. so, here i am. in front of my lappy. pressing the keyboard to update this blog. muahaha..

last nite, there was a match between Singapura "sukapurapura" and Malaysia "superduperawesome". though we lose the game, we lose it with dignity. the players played well but maybe they were a bit tense in the field so that they couldn't think well in there. *hurmmm, its my opinion la kan. sesuka ati eden je kan?haha*.. naaa..! compared to the LION, with full of acting here & there. wasting all the VALUABLE time for Malaysian's players. urghhh.. so LAME la LION..!!! nevermind Malaysian's players. we still here to support you. its ok. there will be a time where we can conquer the world. insyaAllah. we HEART u HARIMAU MALAYA..!!

ok.. done with football.. next..

hurmm. lagi beberapa hari nak masuk Ramadhan. alhamdulillah, berkesempatan untuk berpuasa lagi. insyaAllah, Ramadhan kali ni, akan digunakan sebaik mungkin untuk perhebatkan lagi iman. insyaAllah. moga redha Allah sentiasa bersama kita.

need a rest

2011-07-27T15:32:00.003+08:00

i need a rest. i really need it.
a life's rest.
i am tired of everything.
i need a rest

berubah - changing

2011-07-25T00:07:00.000+08:00

sayer sedang berubah. sedikit demi sedikit.
berdiam diri daripada bersuara.
bersuara equal to cari masalah.
berdiam diri equal to....?
kebaikan mungkin.
mungkin akan tiba satu hari, sayer tak perlu berbuat apa apa.
mungkin perubahan ini berbaloi...

segalanya mungkin.
kannn..?

dan knpa sayer asik eja 'mungkin' as 'mungking'?
pelik sudah..

p/s : i need to calm myself setiap masa. takpe eqa. ini kebaikan bersama. senyum.. tak perlu kata apa apa. :)

where

2011-07-20T02:19:00.002+08:00

where can i have an oxford shoes. been searching in the internet, blogshop. most of them are pre-order. & i dun prefer pre-order. coz i have to wait at least a month to get it.

huu~
imma lazy girl to go to the mall & get into one shop to another for searching a pair of shoes.
~.~'