miss-ing

i miss the happy old days. i miss the days without problems. i miss the friends and the crazy things we did. i miss the hysterically laugh. i just miss them.

life after completed degree

the life after study?
none. ~.~

looking for a job?
not started yet, i've been busy laying down on the coach watching tv, sometimes walking around the mall 'wash-eye' :)))

how I feel?
GREAT FEELING EVAAAAA..!

what's the plan?
na-ah. still no plans, but lots of daydreamingssss..

but, I do hope I can have a nice job with nice pay with nice working hours. heehoo

the year(s)

my 2014 ended up well.
i went through so many things in that year.
i experienced too many things.
i learned a lot from my surrounding.

and 2015.
i hope to experience, to learn a lot more things.
life is all about learning and experiencing new things, kan?
so, im hoping to learn and experience many other things.
and ouhh. i am going to finish my degree in few days.
this coming Friday, it's my last day of exam.
& insyaAllah, i hope i can pass with flying colors. aminnn..
and insyaAllah, i am a degree holder in BA. English Linguistic.
and insyaAllah too, pursuing my master.

till then, i hope everyone will success in everything you do. :-)

the wishlist(s)

hello 2015!

owkeh.. my wish-list(s). *terusssss.. xde intro langsung. pedulik!

1. master holder
2. a car
3. a successful business
4. a house
5. kawen *ngehngehngeh
6. to make both mak & ayah happy sampai biler2.

pray for me. ^_^

is it hard for someone to really know us?
to really know what we want?
even when we have told them so many times about what we want?
is it hard for them to remember it?

wanna be the first & also the last

hello to the man that i love with all of my heart...
sebagai penutup untuk 5 Julai 2014,
this post is dedicated specially for u.

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to Muhammad Afiq,
happy birthday to you..

Allah selamatkan kamu,
Allah selamatkan kamu,
Allah selamatkan Muhammad Afiq,
Allah selamatkan kamu...

^_^

hey there,
selamat ulangtahun kelahiran, sanah helwa..
I wish all the best for you, i wish u'll be blessed for everything u do,
I wish for u to have a happy life with ur dearest families and friends. (and of course with me too ^_^)
I wish for ur success. And i wish everything good will come to you.
Aminnnn.. 

i never forget ur day sayang. never and never will.
how can i forget someone so dear in my heart birthday?
eh.. ngarut tol kalo lupa.
i'd been counting and waiting for this day to come. tawu..?

i don't wanna be the first one to wish u this time.
y eh..?
because first is always me. huu..
so.. i wanted to be the last one too.
ingat? saya nak jadi yg pertama dan terakhir utk awak.
saya selalu jadi yg pertama wish awak.
so, this time saya nak jadi yg terakhir plak.
:)
sweet kan saya? hahaha

sorry. its going to be a lil bit longer..

im sorry, wont be around to celebrate ur birthday..
nti when we are together, we will celebrate every special days together k.
im sorry, there's no present, as i have no money. (still a student ^_^)
sorry for not having a grand celebration.
my only present is just to be the best girl and woman for you.
cliche sgt ke? x pon kan..? huu
i wanna be the best sayang.

the best-est place to express the feelings

thanx blog.
be my very best partner till the very end.

i am the type of person who is really hard to share my problems with others.
i share the happiness, not the sadness.

in this blog, im not sharing everything explicitly nor detailed.
at least, a place to put some pieces that break apart.

"kita hanya mampu merancang,
tapi,
ALLAH adalah sebaik-baik perancang.

dengan Allah aku berserah."

kadang2, terasa jugak nak jadi mcm ssesetengah orang yang mampu mencurahkan segala kekusutan dgn orang lain. tapi tak mampu.
pernah mencuba, lain kekusutan, lain perkataan yang keluar. lain. x sama.
akhirnya, kekusutan semakin kusut-masai.
air mata menjadi peneman. sampai kering, sampai tak ada air nak keluar.
sampai kesat mata, sampai tidur jadi penutup.
dengan harapan, bila terbuka mata, hilang segala kekusutan.
siang... masih mampu teguh hati.
menyingkap ke petang... sedikit goyah.
dan malam... tewas.

Allahu... moga ada orang yang nak pinjamkan bahu.
tak pinjamkan telinga pon tak apa.
sebab mmg tak ada niat untuk berkongsi cerita.
meminjam bahu untuk menjadi alas air mata yang jatuh tak henti.
untuk jadi penahan bahu aku yang terhenjut dek tangisan lara hati.
untuk jadi sekadar penenang.

daripada,

aku yang konon kuat

just so u know

when someone just cant live without you by his/her side,
he/she will feel badly sad,
feel terrible,
feel lonely,
feel lost.

just so u know,
its not the act of selfish.
but,
the act of that person cannot live without you around.

just so u know,
its not the act of acting,
but,
its natural when that person is truly in love.

just so u know.

1612 days

hello there.
happy 1612 days.
happy 4 years and 7 months.

^_^

words will never be enough to describe my feelings for you.
because the feelings are too many..
hahaha..
just.. i LOVE you to the moon & back, to the moon again & back to the earth, & that's it.
coz i have no money to bring u to the moon again.
^_^

if the distance of the moon and the earth as the measurement,
then my love for u is longer than the distance between the two planets. *moon is a planet, kan? huu*


eh eh.. terjiwang pulak... hahaha
BYE

hello & hye :)

a hello and hye from me.. as i haven't post out anything for a long time. been toooooo damn busy.. being a final year student is not a fun thing. yeah.. of course it is a fun thing because, y'know. FINAL YEAR STUDENT. huu~ but, it is not an easy one year for me & the rest of my colleagues. been busy with assignments, presentations & not forgotten, the FYP. huu~. i have not touch anything on my FYP.

so.. why am i updating this blog after a long time of silence? why am i updating my blog during my busiest time? nothing.. just to share about something..

last week.. 14th March 2014.. my brother is officially a HUSBAND. & as a sister... of course i am happy & i hope that he is going to be a good husband and a good leader for his family..

BUT... in the same time.. i feel the sadness.. & why is it? because the gap of age between us is quite a big number. 8 years.. & once upon a time, back then... we were not that close. hurmm.. how to say ea? alaaa.. faham2 je la ea. huhuhu.. my brother and my sister, they quite close with each other. maybe the gap of age between them is not so much.. & i don't know since when I can get along with my brother. i used to feel awkward with my brother. huhu.. don't know why..

and now... with both brother and sister are having their own family, my feelings are a bit uncertain.. hehehe.. sengal kan? but overall.. i am happy for them.. seriously..

to abang... i love you. i may not say it directly to you. but do know that i love you. & u will always be in my prays. be a good husband, be good man, be a good caliph, be a good son, & i wish everything the best for you. aminnn

curi tulang...

saya curi tulang for a while daripada menelaah nota-nota.. hehe..
*padahal da berjam2 curi tulang*

don't know why.. just feel like typing something in here.

i have lots of dissatisfaction. some i'd spilled them out, some i just keep it between myself. entah.. benda yang diluahkan tu, because i can't hold them anymore. & benda yang x terluah, because i can't say them out. it might hurt them. it might ruin the relation. it might... hurmm.. just too many might i guess.. *sigh*

kalau dengan Muhammad Afiq... senang aje nak diluahkan the dissatisfaction.. sbb.. we have too.. we cant hide those problems, especially me. because it will harm me slowly. hence, the relationship will get affected too. huu~ so.. dier pon x kesah mane da klo gF dier ni naek hantu ngan dier. ya la.. like people said... those fights between couples, eventually will strengthen the relationship. hehehe..

but, the dissatisfaction with others.. hurmm.. i only share it with Afiq. & he will soothe my dissatisfaction with his words. *kadang2 menyakitkan hati gak*. huhu.. entah.. sbb dengan orang lain, I feel lazy to get into troubles. kemalasan melanda.. kadang2, bermuka2 jugak.. but heyyy...! bermuka2 dengan orang yg kita kurang suka doesn't mean kiter ni seorang yang hypocrite, owkeh? it means that we are matured enough to deal with the problems & to deal with the annoying person. hee~

dah la. nak sambung blaja.. bubyeee.. ^_^

people change

indeed, people change through out times. deal with it. it is not something rare. it is normal for people to change. either their behavior, attitude, thinking, appearance, or any thing. it is normal.

so, just deal with it, go with the flow. because, we cant always say that only other people change, to be true, we also change. even without we realize it.

thus, a relationship may affected by it. but, do not be too judgmental bout it, do not be too skeptical, accept it with open heart.. & the relationship will be just fine. because when u r too deep into it, when u r so over-thinking, that's the problem. the problem that affects your relationship, & the 'changing' thingy is just a side 'dish' for the main 'menu' which is the over-thinking'.

so, in my life.. i'd been into this thing for many times. through many relations that i'd been into. i've learned a lot. this is my outcome. deal with it & go with the flow. until today... i am such a lazy person to go into a trouble. i would rather shut my mouth when im in an uncomfortable situation. i would rather be passive when im not interested in that particular situation.

so... this is life. the more u live, the more u learn.

he & she

today.. at friend's wedding..

doakan untuk kami juga ye.. hee~

iyurpp.. he lovessssssss to do faces. he lovesssss to spoil the picca. yeah.. he is Afiq.

but do i care? pedulik ape muka dier mcm mne. asal gambar I cantik. I upload. hahaha.. sorry sayang.

4 years :)

alhamdulillah.. 4 years & still counting..
may Allah ease everything for me & him in the journey for the future.
aminnn..

i heart u mR. Bunchet

assalamualaikum

hello guys..

there's nothing much i would like to say here. just giving the news that i am alive. huu~ yes, its been a while i haven't updated anything in here. life is just as busy as the bee. been doing this & that for the sake of the future. assignments, tests and etc.

guys, another year to for me as a student. & another 2 years maybe. doakan saya. doakan kawan2 saya. hope that we can succeed together. & all the best too for all the readers here. aaaminnn...

its been agessss..!

assalamualaikummm...

hello hello.. its been ages yawww.. coz i actually have no idea bout what to say in here. but the fact is... there are lots of things happened around me. so many issues. i just don't have the right words to put together, to string them together to tell a story. like seriously... i am word-less. huu~

this semester, i am a busy student. indeed, there are lots of things to be done this semester. assignment with the 'S'. convention, etc. well.. it's a student life. a life where you should live to the fullest.

so, ganbatte eqa..! show to the world that you are batter than before. :)

keep holding on, Eqa

be tough, be strong.


just when u get hurt so damn frequently.
that will just make u a strong person.

cry when u feel so.
cry out loud to make u feel better.

i'll be fine.

yes. i'll be fine. if not now, maybe later.
maybe one fine day. i'll be fine.

keep calm, keep strong,
i know i'll be fine.

i know, i'll be fine.
yes. i will.

with Allah wills..
i'll be fine.

title-less

u make me think. a lot.
u make me think. about every single thing.
u make me think. hardly.
u make me think. for every single act.

u just make me think.

assalamualaikummmmm

haiiii... long time no write meh. huu~ i dun know if i have my readers here. are there? huu.. if yes, thank you for visiting here. nothing special. i just sharing some of my thoughts, my life, my world, & some things. thank you again...

its ramadhan al-mubarak that we are in right now. the month full of barakah. alhamdulillah. we're in the 20th day. 10 more days for eidul fitri. the last 10 days of ramadhan. let us worship more. in shaa Allah. we do it together. ok?

time flies so damn fast. yeahh.. one of the signs. if u know. astaghfirullah. we sometimes forgot about it because we are too preoccupied with the world. kann? sometimes, we need to stay quiet, alone, and rethink about everything.

i am 24 years old. i cant believe it. really, i cant..! i thought i still a young little girl. huu~ wake up eqa. you're a big girl now. u have ur responsibilities. lots of it, to be precise.

as we grow older, things changed. relation, surrounding, behavior & lots of things. either we notice it or not. and we have to accept it and just go with the flow. redha is the best thing. qada' & qadar Allah. the fate. we have to accept it. Allah knows the best kan?

&&&.. there is no people that will stay the same for the rest of his/her life.

**may Allah accepts our worship. aminn