wanna be the first & also the last

hello to the man that i love with all of my heart...
sebagai penutup untuk 5 Julai 2014,
this post is dedicated specially for u.

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to Muhammad Afiq,
happy birthday to you..

Allah selamatkan kamu,
Allah selamatkan kamu,
Allah selamatkan Muhammad Afiq,
Allah selamatkan kamu...

^_^

hey there,
selamat ulangtahun kelahiran, sanah helwa..
I wish all the best for you, i wish u'll be blessed for everything u do,
I wish for u to have a happy life with ur dearest families and friends. (and of course with me too ^_^)
I wish for ur success. And i wish everything good will come to you.
Aminnnn.. 

i never forget ur day sayang. never and never will.
how can i forget someone so dear in my heart birthday?
eh.. ngarut tol kalo lupa.
i'd been counting and waiting for this day to come. tawu..?

i don't wanna be the first one to wish u this time.
y eh..?
because first is always me. huu..
so.. i wanted to be the last one too.
ingat? saya nak jadi yg pertama dan terakhir utk awak.
saya selalu jadi yg pertama wish awak.
so, this time saya nak jadi yg terakhir plak.
:)
sweet kan saya? hahaha

sorry. its going to be a lil bit longer..

im sorry, wont be around to celebrate ur birthday..
nti when we are together, we will celebrate every special days together k.
im sorry, there's no present, as i have no money. (still a student ^_^)
sorry for not having a grand celebration.
my only present is just to be the best girl and woman for you.
cliche sgt ke? x pon kan..? huu
i wanna be the best sayang.

the best-est place to express the feelings

thanx blog.
be my very best partner till the very end.

i am the type of person who is really hard to share my problems with others.
i share the happiness, not the sadness.

in this blog, im not sharing everything explicitly nor detailed.
at least, a place to put some pieces that break apart.

"kita hanya mampu merancang,
tapi,
ALLAH adalah sebaik-baik perancang.

dengan Allah aku berserah."

kadang2, terasa jugak nak jadi mcm ssesetengah orang yang mampu mencurahkan segala kekusutan dgn orang lain. tapi tak mampu.
pernah mencuba, lain kekusutan, lain perkataan yang keluar. lain. x sama.
akhirnya, kekusutan semakin kusut-masai.
air mata menjadi peneman. sampai kering, sampai tak ada air nak keluar.
sampai kesat mata, sampai tidur jadi penutup.
dengan harapan, bila terbuka mata, hilang segala kekusutan.
siang... masih mampu teguh hati.
menyingkap ke petang... sedikit goyah.
dan malam... tewas.

Allahu... moga ada orang yang nak pinjamkan bahu.
tak pinjamkan telinga pon tak apa.
sebab mmg tak ada niat untuk berkongsi cerita.
meminjam bahu untuk menjadi alas air mata yang jatuh tak henti.
untuk jadi penahan bahu aku yang terhenjut dek tangisan lara hati.
untuk jadi sekadar penenang.

daripada,

aku yang konon kuat

just so u know

when someone just cant live without you by his/her side,
he/she will feel badly sad,
feel terrible,
feel lonely,
feel lost.

just so u know,
its not the act of selfish.
but,
the act of that person cannot live without you around.

just so u know,
its not the act of acting,
but,
its natural when that person is truly in love.

just so u know.

1612 days

hello there.
happy 1612 days.
happy 4 years and 7 months.

^_^

words will never be enough to describe my feelings for you.
because the feelings are too many..
hahaha..
just.. i LOVE you to the moon & back, to the moon again & back to the earth, & that's it.
coz i have no money to bring u to the moon again.
^_^

if the distance of the moon and the earth as the measurement,
then my love for u is longer than the distance between the two planets. *moon is a planet, kan? huu*


eh eh.. terjiwang pulak... hahaha
BYE

hello & hye :)

a hello and hye from me.. as i haven't post out anything for a long time. been toooooo damn busy.. being a final year student is not a fun thing. yeah.. of course it is a fun thing because, y'know. FINAL YEAR STUDENT. huu~ but, it is not an easy one year for me & the rest of my colleagues. been busy with assignments, presentations & not forgotten, the FYP. huu~. i have not touch anything on my FYP.

so.. why am i updating this blog after a long time of silence? why am i updating my blog during my busiest time? nothing.. just to share about something..

last week.. 14th March 2014.. my brother is officially a HUSBAND. & as a sister... of course i am happy & i hope that he is going to be a good husband and a good leader for his family..

BUT... in the same time.. i feel the sadness.. & why is it? because the gap of age between us is quite a big number. 8 years.. & once upon a time, back then... we were not that close. hurmm.. how to say ea? alaaa.. faham2 je la ea. huhuhu.. my brother and my sister, they quite close with each other. maybe the gap of age between them is not so much.. & i don't know since when I can get along with my brother. i used to feel awkward with my brother. huhu.. don't know why..

and now... with both brother and sister are having their own family, my feelings are a bit uncertain.. hehehe.. sengal kan? but overall.. i am happy for them.. seriously..

to abang... i love you. i may not say it directly to you. but do know that i love you. & u will always be in my prays. be a good husband, be good man, be a good caliph, be a good son, & i wish everything the best for you. aminnn