♥ eQa | RosLan ♥: 2014

Thursday, November 13, 2014

is it hard for someone to really know us?
to really know what we want?
even when we have told them so many times about what we want?
is it hard for them to remember it?

Saturday, July 5, 2014

wanna be the first & also the last

hello to the man that i love with all of my heart...
sebagai penutup untuk 5 Julai 2014,
this post is dedicated specially for u.

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to Muhammad Afiq,
happy birthday to you..

Allah selamatkan kamu,
Allah selamatkan kamu,
Allah selamatkan Muhammad Afiq,
Allah selamatkan kamu...


hey there,
selamat ulangtahun kelahiran, sanah helwa..
I wish all the best for you, i wish u'll be blessed for everything u do,
I wish for u to have a happy life with ur dearest families and friends. (and of course with me too ^_^)
I wish for ur success. And i wish everything good will come to you.

i never forget ur day sayang. never and never will.
how can i forget someone so dear in my heart birthday?
eh.. ngarut tol kalo lupa.
i'd been counting and waiting for this day to come. tawu..?

i don't wanna be the first one to wish u this time.
y eh..?
because first is always me. huu..
so.. i wanted to be the last one too.
ingat? saya nak jadi yg pertama dan terakhir utk awak.
saya selalu jadi yg pertama wish awak.
so, this time saya nak jadi yg terakhir plak.
sweet kan saya? hahaha

sorry. its going to be a lil bit longer..

im sorry, wont be around to celebrate ur birthday..
nti when we are together, we will celebrate every special days together k.
im sorry, there's no present, as i have no money. (still a student ^_^)
sorry for not having a grand celebration.
my only present is just to be the best girl and woman for you.
cliche sgt ke? x pon kan..? huu
i wanna be the best sayang.

Saturday, May 31, 2014

the best-est place to express the feelings

thanx blog.
be my very best partner till the very end.

i am the type of person who is really hard to share my problems with others.
i share the happiness, not the sadness.

in this blog, im not sharing everything explicitly nor detailed.
at least, a place to put some pieces that break apart.

"kita hanya mampu merancang,
ALLAH adalah sebaik-baik perancang.

dengan Allah aku berserah."

kadang2, terasa jugak nak jadi mcm ssesetengah orang yang mampu mencurahkan segala kekusutan dgn orang lain. tapi tak mampu.
pernah mencuba, lain kekusutan, lain perkataan yang keluar. lain. x sama.
akhirnya, kekusutan semakin kusut-masai.
air mata menjadi peneman. sampai kering, sampai tak ada air nak keluar.
sampai kesat mata, sampai tidur jadi penutup.
dengan harapan, bila terbuka mata, hilang segala kekusutan.
siang... masih mampu teguh hati.
menyingkap ke petang... sedikit goyah.
dan malam... tewas.

Allahu... moga ada orang yang nak pinjamkan bahu.
tak pinjamkan telinga pon tak apa.
sebab mmg tak ada niat untuk berkongsi cerita.
meminjam bahu untuk menjadi alas air mata yang jatuh tak henti.
untuk jadi penahan bahu aku yang terhenjut dek tangisan lara hati.
untuk jadi sekadar penenang.

aku yang konon kuat

Friday, May 30, 2014

just so u know

when someone just cant live without you by his/her side,
he/she will feel badly sad,
feel terrible,
feel lonely,
feel lost.

just so u know,
its not the act of selfish.
the act of that person cannot live without you around.

just so u know,
its not the act of acting,
its natural when that person is truly in love.

just so u know.

Monday, April 28, 2014

1612 days

hello there.
happy 1612 days.
happy 4 years and 7 months.


words will never be enough to describe my feelings for you.
because the feelings are too many..
just.. i LOVE you to the moon & back, to the moon again & back to the earth, & that's it.
coz i have no money to bring u to the moon again.

if the distance of the moon and the earth as the measurement,
then my love for u is longer than the distance between the two planets. *moon is a planet, kan? huu*

eh eh.. terjiwang pulak... hahaha

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

hello & hye :)

a hello and hye from me.. as i haven't post out anything for a long time. been toooooo damn busy.. being a final year student is not a fun thing. yeah.. of course it is a fun thing because, y'know. FINAL YEAR STUDENT. huu~ but, it is not an easy one year for me & the rest of my colleagues. been busy with assignments, presentations & not forgotten, the FYP. huu~. i have not touch anything on my FYP.

so.. why am i updating this blog after a long time of silence? why am i updating my blog during my busiest time? nothing.. just to share about something..

last week.. 14th March 2014.. my brother is officially a HUSBAND. & as a sister... of course i am happy & i hope that he is going to be a good husband and a good leader for his family..

BUT... in the same time.. i feel the sadness.. & why is it? because the gap of age between us is quite a big number. 8 years.. & once upon a time, back then... we were not that close. hurmm.. how to say ea? alaaa.. faham2 je la ea. huhuhu.. my brother and my sister, they quite close with each other. maybe the gap of age between them is not so much.. & i don't know since when I can get along with my brother. i used to feel awkward with my brother. huhu.. don't know why..

and now... with both brother and sister are having their own family, my feelings are a bit uncertain.. hehehe.. sengal kan? but overall.. i am happy for them.. seriously..

to abang... i love you. i may not say it directly to you. but do know that i love you. & u will always be in my prays. be a good husband, be good man, be a good caliph, be a good son, & i wish everything the best for you. aminnn

Friday, January 3, 2014

curi tulang...

saya curi tulang for a while daripada menelaah nota-nota.. hehe..
*padahal da berjam2 curi tulang*

don't know why.. just feel like typing something in here.

i have lots of dissatisfaction. some i'd spilled them out, some i just keep it between myself. entah.. benda yang diluahkan tu, because i can't hold them anymore. & benda yang x terluah, because i can't say them out. it might hurt them. it might ruin the relation. it might... hurmm.. just too many might i guess.. *sigh*

kalau dengan Muhammad Afiq... senang aje nak diluahkan the dissatisfaction.. sbb.. we have too.. we cant hide those problems, especially me. because it will harm me slowly. hence, the relationship will get affected too. huu~ so.. dier pon x kesah mane da klo gF dier ni naek hantu ngan dier. ya la.. like people said... those fights between couples, eventually will strengthen the relationship. hehehe..

but, the dissatisfaction with others.. hurmm.. i only share it with Afiq. & he will soothe my dissatisfaction with his words. *kadang2 menyakitkan hati gak*. huhu.. entah.. sbb dengan orang lain, I feel lazy to get into troubles. kemalasan melanda.. kadang2, bermuka2 jugak.. but heyyy...! bermuka2 dengan orang yg kita kurang suka doesn't mean kiter ni seorang yang hypocrite, owkeh? it means that we are matured enough to deal with the problems & to deal with the annoying person. hee~

dah la. nak sambung blaja.. bubyeee.. ^_^

Thursday, January 2, 2014

people change

indeed, people change through out times. deal with it. it is not something rare. it is normal for people to change. either their behavior, attitude, thinking, appearance, or any thing. it is normal.

so, just deal with it, go with the flow. because, we cant always say that only other people change, to be true, we also change. even without we realize it.

thus, a relationship may affected by it. but, do not be too judgmental bout it, do not be too skeptical, accept it with open heart.. & the relationship will be just fine. because when u r too deep into it, when u r so over-thinking, that's the problem. the problem that affects your relationship, & the 'changing' thingy is just a side 'dish' for the main 'menu' which is the over-thinking'.

so, in my life.. i'd been into this thing for many times. through many relations that i'd been into. i've learned a lot. this is my outcome. deal with it & go with the flow. until today... i am such a lazy person to go into a trouble. i would rather shut my mouth when im in an uncomfortable situation. i would rather be passive when im not interested in that particular situation.

so... this is life. the more u live, the more u learn.