♥ eQa | RosLan ♥: March 2011

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

current mood

feel like deactivating my facebook. my blog. off my phone. & anything that people may contact me.

need some time to be alone. to be in my world. need some space. for me. & only me. no one else.

dun feel like xposing my self to the world. feel like wanna be in a room for some time. & get out from that room when i feel so. when im ready. when the feelings disappear.

or.. can somebody just be here for me. make me calm. need somebody to help me. somebody who really know myself, my life. i just want to share everything that burden me inside. everything.

hurmm

badmood.

have no intention to talk to others. ngan mak & ayah pon.

so, as conclusion. stay in the room. listen to the music. turn up the volume.

*melayan perasaan sendiri

Monday, March 28, 2011

hati sunyi, hati sepi

lone ranger. huu~!

akan ditinggalkan kesunyian, kerinduan, kesedihan, kesepian, keresahan, kegelisahan, kedukaan, ketidak-tenangan.. dan semua "ke....an" yang ke arah perkataan2 tadi. huu. even skarang ni pon da rasa. :'(

hurmm.. biler terpk. rasa nak nangis je. hurmm.. takpe la. lame2 nanti da biasa lah. tade la nak rasa macam ni lagi. kene tinggal lame lame pon da tade effect.

sedih tawuuu..!!!

bz bz bz

diz week. gonna be a long week and BUSY week. lotsa things have to be done. school xpecially. the event. the big event.

today.. da second period till recess were being used for rehearsal. kesian kat students sbb kene duduk kat panas. huu~ & we.. the teachers.. were doing the talking thingy on the benches, under the shady roof. hahaha

tomorrow & the next day until Thursday gonna be so damn  busy with all the preparations & rehearsal.

a hectic week...

Thursday, March 24, 2011

M U E T

hurmm.. MUET againnnnnn...

kisah si guru ganti 5

   tadi.. masa kat skola.. ajar kH kan.. sayer kan.. kene kann.. gergaji kayu ouhh.. mak aihh.. ape daya sangat la kudrat beta ni. nak menggergaji kayu yang belambak untuk bebudak uh. adehh.. nak pitam je rsa tadi. last menggergaji kayu pon tahun biler ntah. zaman tok kaduk rasa nyer. hahaha..

   ni pon tak abis lagi kot gergaji kayu..!! banyak agi yang perlu digergaji..!! aritu.. ade ckgu tu cakap, ade mesin untuk potong papan lapis. tapi di mana yaa..? puas beta merayap ke seluruh pelusuk bilik kH uh. tade plak nampak. nak tnya cikgu uh. cikgu tu plak da balik. mmg kes naya la an. nasib la masih handal menggergaji. hahahaha.. tade la nampak cam kurang pandai bler buat depan budak2 tuh. hahahaha...

   yerlaaa.. time belajar kat uni pon. mane la amek kH. ni tiba2 suruh wat kerja kayu. bulan depan kene plak projek letrik elektronik. ape cer ape cer..?? nak patri bagai. mane la nak taw wayar bumi, neutral ngan ape ea lagi satu..?? tgkkk..! see..!! sayer tataw. luper yang sebetulnyer. huhuhu~ nampak gaya nyer. kne jugak bukak buku & belajar balik.. ~.~" sambil bekerja, sambil timba ilmu. ehh.. nasib baek masa bab menjahit nnti da abis ngajor da. hehehehehe

   kalo kat umah pon, ingat ayah nak bagi ke buat kerja menggergaji tuh.. MEMANG TIDAK LAAA..!! nak nak emak kann.. mmg melarang sekeras2 nyer. kalo beta degil jugak nak buat, mesti da kne marah ngan mak. tapi kan mak. adek boleh buat sorang2 je kat skola tadi.. ekekeke. urat tangan pon da mula timbul2 da nih.. hahaha *sangat tableh blah!*

   pasni da boleh buat bengkel kerja kayu. HAHAHAHA

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

kisah si guru ganti 4

assalamualaikum to all readers. *ade ke?* huu~ thanx to those yang sudi bukak my blog, sudi baca. blog cikai je nih. :)

my next story about school, pupils and teaching.

as usual la kan.. after a week of holiday, nak kene start kje balik mmg.. malas nyerrrr.. huhu.. tapi. demi mendidik anak bangsa untuk menjadi insan yang berilmu dan berwawasan, ku gagahkan juga diriku ini. weewitt.. hehe~ this week, ade si ALONG  skali. sbb dier tgh ROS or PBS. bukan PMS yer. hehe. minggu ni je la. next week. no more si Along ngok ngek. budak ni plak.. dok amek gmbo je kje. amek gmbo skola ok lagi. ni tidak. dok pasang self-timer kat camera, amek gmbo sendiri. hahaha.. along along.. mmg gler gmbo la anda nih.

next.. hah.. ari Isnin ade ko-kurikulum. then, i was there la jugak. kene jaga budak bola tampar. & hurmm.. ya la. ari Isnin kan. baju kurung plak. kene la dok ajar budak2 uh maen bola tampar. aishh.. mmg tableh blahh.. pastu an. dak along pon join jugak. siap bukak heels. haha.. paling tableh blahh.. kain dier da terkoyak kat bawah uh. hahaha.. sengal. pas ko-ku  bola tampar. kene plak coach budak bola jaring. bermain la bola jaring dengan berbaju kurung. nasib bek tak kene berlari-lari. takat baling baling bola je. fuhhh.. agak penat la smalam. balik umah terus terbongkang. hahahaha

dats all for today kot. next week. gonna have sumthing big, sumthing special. sila tunggu yer. sedikit teaser.. ASTRO.. ^_^

ps : having difficulty nak print out LP. grr~! printer ni plak buat hal..! ketuk kanggg..!

Sunday, March 20, 2011

enjoying the day

went out..! yeayy.. padahal esok skola. haha. bior la..

no picca on this date. sbb da terlalu bnyk gmbo. so, malas da nak bergambo. hehe..

Muhammad Afiq.. today was awesome. senang citer, setiap hari bersama anda mmg AWESOME gilerr.. saya bahagia bler dgn awak. saya suka tgk muka awak. saya suka dgr awak gelak. saya suka biler awak pujuk sayer. saya suka biler awak nak amek hati sayer biler saya merajuk. saya suka semuanyer la. & saya bahagia.

i love you honey. thanx yurpp for today, for days before. thanx a lot sayang..!

yippee

menjerit kegirangan. hahaha.. giler kan..? eh. tidak la. kater hepi. mmg la macam tu. ape la. ekeke

tade la. terjumpa lens 35-70mm. tayah beli. free. haha.. my dslr kan sony. lens tu plak minolta. agaga.. lens lame kot. sbb itu lens yg guna untuk camera slr. yg guna filem. balik je umah. terus acu cuba test kat camera. padan la plakkk.. haha.. rezeki weh. rezeki. nak beli kat luar da bape da uh. huhuhu

Saturday, March 19, 2011

fall in love. always


always fall for you.
just to let u know.
i love u.
forever. & i mean forever.

me. jerk

im a jerk. yes. i am. a jerk with no feelings. ade feelings pon orang tableh nk paham. so, ape guna ade? luper. im a jerk kan. so. my feelings, my thoughts smua sampah. diulangi. SAMPAH.

sampah yg layak nak ditendang2. tak masuk tong. tendang2 lagi. tak pon kne tiup angin. hah. itulah yg mampu diibaratkan dengan my feelings & thoughts. sangat hina kan.

thanx btw. kata2 aku tak bermakna pon. kata2 aku kosong. stakat kata2 yang digunakan untuk mengungkap amarah dalam hati.

da la. IM A JERK. fullstop. tapayah dilayan manusia macam aku. manusia yang punya perasaan dan pemikiran yang setaraf sampah. kan?

Friday, March 18, 2011

myspace

   ouhh.. ape cer ngan myspace skarang..? haha.. sejak da ber'fesbuk' nih.. luper plak kat myspace. last bukak ntah biler ntah. cam da ade kemajuan je myspace uh. tapiii.. malas la plak nak bersosial kat ctu. zamam kanak2 da hilang. HAHAHA.. poyo je an..

   friendster, tagged.. da deactivate da. banyak nau laman sosial nyer. marilah kiter stick kepada yang satu. sebagai permulaan untuk ajar diri stick kepada yg SATU.. hehehe

  dannn.. kot kot la fesbuk nak tutup. mari kembali kepada myspace. ^__^

Thursday, March 17, 2011

ouhh my ouhh my

Mark Zuckerberg.. why la why your fesbuk is like the 'turtle'.  so so slow la.. i cant handle it u know. it drives me crazy.
ouh myyyy...

ok.. disebabkan fesbuk menjadi semakin tenat. maka nyer.. tumblr menjadi pilihan hati. dan juga belog ini.. hohoho

Mark Zuckerberg.. help us by make it more 'cepat' or 'laju'.

updating

someone had asked me to update this blog. huwarghh.. malas. taw takk..?? huhu

left only few days for school to fill with pupils & teachers & workers again. huhu.. & dan cuti ini banyak digunakan untuk bersama kaum keluarga sahaja. takde kuar ke mane2 pon. klo stakat bli barang kat JJ tu adela. he he he

last monday, my family was having some event or ceremony..? ouhh. mane2 aje la. 14th March adelah besday my brother & kak in.. & special dedication untuk abang. ooopss.. agak terlambat untuk menghapdet. haha

ABANG..!!!
happy besday yg ke..... 30..!!
tua sudah. bler la nak kawen an..?
ishk ishk ishkk..
bawak2 la sedor diri yer..
huhu
semoga dipanjangkan umur & diperluaskan pintu rezeki
untuk ko & syarikat ko.
dapat duit lebih. bak cni sikit. 
ekeke

err.. rasa nyer tu je la untuk kali nih. nak kene buat cake lagi. sebab si ALONG ngokngek ade kat Melaka. hahaha.. *jangan marah ahh along.* hahaha

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

:)

tersenyum je la yang sayer mampu. nak buat macam maner. as i always said.. things are changing as time move on. so do the relationship. friends ke, lovers ke, families ke. akan ade perubahan nye. kannn..?

so... takpe la. nak buat macam maner. terima je la akan hakikatnyer.

da tertulis kat loh mahfuz akan suratan hidup macam ni. takkan nak memarah pulak. senyum je la kan. insyaAllah. akan ade yg terbaik berlaku. biler ia berlaku.. wallahualam. Allah Maha Mengetahui.

moga kalian bergembira, berbahagia hendaknyer. Aminnnn

Monday, March 14, 2011

semakin sakit dengan harapan yang satu persatu hancur.

tidak. tidak menyalahkan sesiapa. cuma diri ini yang sering kali tersalah mengharap.
terlalu mengharap pada satu ketidakpastian.
yang akhirnya menderita sendiri.

sakit. itu yang mampu ak ungkapkan.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

13 March 2011

well.. its holiday kan..? so, jejalan la kan. so, here the picca. ouhh. luper. kawan2 kakak ade skali. kami bersama2 menapak ke banda hilir. :)

Saturday, March 12, 2011

kisah si guru ganti 3

okok.. 3 sudahhh.. now.. its school holiday..!! yipppeee..!!

hurmm.. actually, there was an incident. ok. i was in standard 1 class. teaching pJ. the last lesson. so, there are 2 boys in that class yang mmg hard-2-control. sangat HARD-2-CONTROL..! on that day, one boy was absent. so, left only one boy. but this boy, mmg jenis tak makan saman. aishh.. tak boleh lepas pandang langsung kat dier ni.

so, nak dijadikan cerita. while i was looking at other pupils, suddenly ..
pupil : cikgu!! mulut ****** berdarah.
me : macam mane boleh berdarah?
pupil : ****** tumbuk dier..

ouhh mann.. one fact u shud know. anything happens in class is on the teacher's responsibility. bler tnya budak lelaki uh.. mmg tanak mengaku la kan. denying aje la. aishh.. parahh.. da uh. bler da buat kawan dier macam uh. mmg tak duduk diam jugak la. tade kesedaran tol..

then, mak budak yang kene tumbuk nih mmg selalu tggu dier masa waktu balik taw. adela pulak budak yang bgtau kat mak dier. in front of me, his mom still can smile & show me her 'muka-tak-kesah'. bler da bunyi loceng balik. budak2 pon da kuar.. & i was on my way nak naik bilik guru, tiba2 nampak ade budak2 kelas uh cam reramai kat sebelah bangunan uh.. rupa2nyer.. mak budak tuh marah budak yg pukul anak dier. rasanyer macam dier lempang budak lelaki uh. sbb masa lalu sebelah uh.. nampak budak tuh tgh pegang pipi dier. & i just walked away. terdengar la mak dier cakap..
that MOM : saya pon tak penah nak pukul anak saya macam ni skali.

hurmm.. baru darjah 1 tuh. tapi perangai da macam tu skali. budak lelaki nih. mmg nakal yang amat. jenis suka melawan balik. kiter senyap, dier buat hal. kiter bising pon dier buat hal. hurmm

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

kisah si guru ganti 2

ouhh.. sori. i have lots of stories to tell. that's why i have this second part. huhu

it was happened this morning. after i had my pJ lesson. i was on my way to the teacher's room. & there were few standard 6 boys passed by me. suddenly a boy said...
boy : cikgu, cikgu ni cantik la. nak kenal boleh?

unfortunately, i cudn't see which boy was talking like that to me. kalo tak.. mmg da panggil suruh berhenti da..

aish.. kecik2 da pndai nak meng'usha'. nak usha cikgu pulak tuh..! where's da respect boy..?! u shudn't behave like that.

& teringt plak dulu2. when i was in primary and secondary. never acted like that. we have the utmost respect towards the teachers. & olders. but pupils nowadays. i dun know where is the wrong till they can act like that.

&... there were so many differences between now & then.

kisah si guru ganti 1

so, just to let u know. i'll be telling u da story of me, the Guru Ganti. ekeke. not daily la. only when it comes to sumthings yang i feel like wanna tell u je. huu~ & before this pon, there were few yang i've been telling u. so, its the Chronicles oF the Cikgu Ganti. haha.. *gedik je an* hahaha

ok.. its been days la kot.. everytime i went to the standard 1. xpecially this ONE class.. ni masa first time masuk kelas uh. masuk2 je..

d'cip : berdiri semua (the others pon berdiri)... selamat sejahtera PUAN nor..!
me : & i was likee......  ~.~" err.. *apekahh*
pupils : selamat sejahtera PUAN nor..! 
me : err.. saya tak kawen lagi. tayah panggil puan. panggil CIKGU NOR.

& i kept telling them the same thing..! but stil, they did it. huhu..

while i was eating, one teacher came..
teacher : eh.. awak da kawen ke..? belum kan..?
me : belum lagi.. 
teacher : tapi saye dengar bdak2 darjah 1 paggil awak puan..
me : *laughing*.. haha.. tu la pasal. da cakap da sayer tak kawen lagi. tp dorang buat jugak.

see.. how hard it is..
masa 2nd time masuk kelas uh.. i was telling the same thing la kan.. then a girl came to me.
girl : teacher tak kawen lagi..?

me : belum la.. kenape..?
girl : tapi teacher pakai cincin
me : *err* tak semestinyer orang da kawen je pakai cincin.
huhuhuhuhu.. budak2 pon da boleh pikir macam tuh kan. dulu, me myselfsendiri tataw kalo pakai cincin uh da kawen. kids nowadays are more advance than i thought. huhu

Monday, March 7, 2011

rasa nak demam balik.
sakit tekak. selesema. badan sakit sakit.









*ya Allah. moga diberi ketenangan hati kepada ku. ak mohon ya Allah. berikanlah hamba Mu ini satu ketenangan.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Pendidikan Jasmani

ok. yesterday, i tot that the program will be held till my last PJ session. & ouchh.. i was wrong. the program, stated there, finish on 9.30 am. & my bad. my last PJ session was on 9.45 am..

so, with my yesterday tot, i was wearing a Baju Kurung to school. supposedly, baju PJ la kan. & guess what.. i was teaching PJ wearing baju kurung. ahaxx..
one of my students : "cikgu, macam mane nak PJ kalo cikgu tak pakai baju PJ"
me : "eh, yang PJ awak. sayer tak PJ pon"

~.~"

the truth.. "how am i going to teach them to jump here & there, run here & there with this baju kurung?" huhuhu

u know what happened..? i was jumping & running with baju kurung. okokk.. my fault. im sorry. huhu

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

cakap cakap

while im having some free time, so.. mari kiter bercakap cakap. eh. sayer je yang bercakap cakap. awak baca je k. :)

hurmm.. world is getting hotter hah..? i cant sleep well ouh coz of the hot weather. so hot hot laa. i sweat sweat taw.. haha.. well.. that wasn't my topic for today. the topic is.....*tataw nak tajuk ape,tapi baca je la k* hehe

so many weird things happen nowadays. tade la pelik mane kalo nak diikutkan. dunia pon makin maju kan. so, if there is anything yang orang buat.. alasan... dunia da maju. tak boleh pikir kolot kolot da. eh.. wadehek..! dunia da maju pon, adab, adat, budaya tetap dijunjung. agama tetap dipegang.. owkeh..? ade paham..?

having a good education is a must nowadays. or u will left behind. ok. sayer faham itu. tapi.. having a good education BUKAN bermaksud anda boleh meninggi diri.. kan..? belajar itu satu kemestian. untuk berjaya dunia dan tak lupe jugak.. untuk akhirat. tapi kalo gunakan alasan yang anda tu da belajar sampai ke peringkat tertinggi untuk meninggi diri.. mmg tak patut la.

even when u r applying for any jobs pon, they will find sumone yang ade experiences. kalo da belajar tggi pon, tade pengalaman.. then kje pun cam ape je. kaku je.. tak boleh la der. paling tak pon. kne kje dari bawah jugak kan. tak boleh la nak terus jadi CEO ke. manager ke. kalo lu dapat la kan. wa tabik spring longgar la. sebab.. mmg takkan dapat nyer. laen la lu memang pewaris tegar. kann..?

lagi satu.. biler da belajar tinggi uh. tayah la nak luper diri. ingt la tempat berpijak ni. esok lusa. ke tanah jugak. bukan ke langit pun. bler da belajar tinggi uh.. tayah la nk luper sdare. esok lusa, situ jugak tempat ko nak mintak tolong. biler da blaja tinggi uh. jangan luper daratan la. sbb ko mmg duduk kat daratan ni. takkan penah ko tinggal kat lautan ke. angkasa ke. bler da blaja tinggi uh. cuba ingt ingt sket.. ilmu agama uh setanding ke ilmu duniawi anda tu..? klo belum.. jangan la meninggi diri. ok..?

ok. itu lah cakap cakap sayer pada hari ini. sekian.. terima kasih

assalamualaikum

..ellopzz.. da lame tak update blog. huu~ bz mehh. lagipon, life was da same everyday. bgn pagi, pegi skola, balik skola, wat kje. tido.

..hurmm.. any new things..? dun think so. everything is still da same. just got new watch from daddy. hee~ mintak laen dapat laen. mmg bertuah la an.. haha.. tenkiu daddy..!

..waiting for school holiday. *skola baru bape hari nk cuti da an* hehehe.. bior laaaaaa..

..ape lagi yurp. hurmm.. tgh tggu nak kawen..! HAHA.. giler. *gatai no. anak sapa la nih*

..murid murid sedang ujian. selamat berjaya anak anak murid.

..sorang budak panggil sayer "kakak" dalam kelas. sangat err.. ~.~"

..tinggi mane pon belajar, kalo tade adab mmg tableh pegi memane.

..sayang ayah.sayang mak. sayang abang. sayang kakak. sayang EHEM EHEM. sayang semua. hee~

..tengok tengok. kemengarutan kemelandaan.

.....ok la. tu je. hurmm. sbb nnti ade orang tegur. bler kje je. satu hape tak jalan kat blog. hahaha..

...............ok ok. byeee