hello & goodbye

there is a HELLO..
&
there is a GOODBYE.
so.
GOODBYE for now.
till we meet again.

waterfall at Ayer Hitam, Puchong

 ini gambar kat waterfall tu. cantik kan air dier..? hijau hijau biru macam tu. jernih sangat. kedalam air terjun ni adalah 15meter. dalam gilerrrrr.. tapi still leh nampak dasar dier. ade kayu berbentuk Y yang besar kat dasar air ni... tenang je tempat ni.

ini gambar eqa .. muahahahaha.. sajer nak masukkan gambo gedik2 kat sini. hahahaha. ni masa kat perkampungan org asli. masa ni da abis event. tgh tggu bus datang. bosan2.. kiter amek gmbo laa.. hehehe

camping QKU2101

QKU2101 adalah kod untuk kursus ko-kurikulum berkredit pengakap kelana siswa.
so, hari jumaat lepas, 23 Disember 2011 ktorg gerak dari upm ke Hutan Simpan Ayer Hitam, Puching. dan sampai lah hari ni the last day, 25 Disember 2011.

before g camping ni. bnyk lah hal2 yang agak kelam kabut, tak tersusun. tak ape smua la. mmg agak tension la jugak masa nak uruskan pelbagai bnda. but then... hari ni. da terbukti, semuanye adalah worth it.  :)

alhamdulillah. event kat perkampungan orang asli pon berjalan dengan lancar.

& kitorg sempat jungle trekking. awesome amat bler tgk waterfall kat tempat tuh. cantik. satu keindahan alam yang semula jadi. yg belum disentuh oleh mana2 pihak pon. cantik gler kot...!!!! huu~

gmbar ... nanti eqa masukkan. k..?? k lah. tgh tggu abang ni. sementara tunggu dier. buat satu post jap. hee~

byeee..!

exam is just around the corner.

Whoahhh.. pejam celik pejam celik.. da nak abis semester 1.

Next week study week. Then, final pulak. 4 papersssss.. huu~  wish mi lak wish mi lak. Hehe

Target 4.00 kalo mampu. Kalo tak. 3.50 ke atas. insyaAllah… 

Kalo stakat target, tapi tak buat ape2. Study pon tak. Memang tak la nak capai target. Kan?

Subject sem ni, hurmm.. ok la. Tp kne bnyk membaca. Every paper ade essay. ~.~”

Eden dah la lomah bab nak karang mengarang ayat ni. Ngan theory nye lagik. Huu~

Takpe.. di mana ada kemahuan, di situ ade jalan.

Kalo tak capai target, mesti tension je nnti kan.

Hurmm. Hurmm. Takpe, ini satu cabaran buat eqa.

I’ll do my best..!

saya sayang saya. ;)

I  hardly believe that I am 22 y/o right now. Time is moving so fast that I can’t even realize i’m getting older day by day. Sumtime, when people asked me bout my age. I bcame confuse. Muahaha.. tak ingt umur sendiri. Sengal kan? Yeahhh.. sayer mmg sengal. ~.~”. tapi sayer suka. Hahaha..

I am enjoying myself in this world though sumtimes few sad, bitter things happened. But hey! That’s not a life namenye kalo bnda baek je yang blaku. Kan? So, till now, I’ve been through a rough but happy life. 

I am happy to be me. Im not copycat-ing others. Not even a bit pon. I am being me. The naive me. Muahaha.. *naive ke?*  sikit la kot. I love being me, Nur Syafiqah yang cool, emo, sensitive, childish, kind-hearted, good girl.. hahaha.. ok ok. Sayer melebih2 sket. Yang kuat perasannnnnnnnnnn. Itu memang sayer. Hee~ 

Life is amazing, isn’t it? Life teaches u lots of things. From the things that u oredi know to the things that u never expected that will happen in ur life. Things that u watch in movies, suddenly happen to you, tak rasa macam da jadi watak dalam movie ke? Pastu tgk keliling, ade tak camera tersembunyi. Hehehehe…

Just, enjoy ur life to the fullest. But make sure, its balance between dunnia wal akhirah. Enjoy, enjoy jugak. Tapi kne ingt jugak tuntutan kiter sbgai umat Islam. Wallahualam. ;)

my very first time

ape yg 'my very first time' sangat tu kan...?? huu~
tade ape pon.
first time bawak keta auto di sekitar selangor.
pada waktu malam. HAHAHA..
abis la kalo mak tau. hee~
tadi mula-mula nak keta manual. sbb before ni pon da biasa manual kannn.
tp tade keta manual. ade auto je. nak xnak. amek je la.
dalam hati berdebar giler da. 1st time kottttt.
eqa nak kuar g makan malam ngan rumets je pon.
then minimum sewa keta 3 jam. amek je la.
kuar kol 9. balik kol 12.
lepas makan.. ktorang g downtown kat depan the mines.
jalan jalan. pusing pusing. besar gak downtown situ.
tak abis pusing pon.
nnti nak g lagi la. nak pusing satu downtown uh.
dah la barang2 murah. hu hu hu...
nnti... kalo ade masa lagi. nak pegi lagi.
ngan rumettttttt..
^_^

makanan kami untuk tadiiii.. at chop & steak house. berbaloi-baloiiii.. ;)

with rumet yang GILER2. hehehe

terima kasih awak

hey mista bunchet. kiter mmg giler kan? xpecially you la kan. kan? huu~
terima kasih ye melayan karenah sayer yang ntah pape ni.
yang suka suka je moody tak tentu pasal.
yang suka suka je nak marah you.
yang suka suka je carik pasal even bnda kecik.
yang suka suka je nak merajuk tak tntu hala.
yang suka suka je nak jeles tak pasal pasal.
yang suka suka je buat suka suka. hee~
ye. sayer mmg macam tu.
tapi awak sangat lah bersabar dengan sayer kan?
even kadang kadang terlepas jugak baran awak kat sayer.
hu hu hu...

sayer taw awak benci sayer kalau
time awak bercakap, sayer buat bnda lain.
tapi percayalah. sayer dengar je ape awak cakap. cuma sayer tak reti duduk diam.

sayang awak sangat sangat.
heart you a lot Mista Bunchet. <3

to be honest

to be honest la kan.. actually, there are LOTS of things yang eqa agak kurang senang hati, kurang enak, kurang gemar sejak akhir-akhir ni. hurmmm.. siyes. mmg rasa nak lepaskan je. tapi hati orang wehh. hati orang.. kne la kiter jaga. ye dak..? kalo hati kiter ni. sakit macam kne simbah asid pon. mmg tak ksah. mmg tak jadi hal la. tp orang lain ni, kalo da sakit hati ngan kiter. mau nye kiter ni di campak-campak je. huu~

ksian eden ni. pity me u know??

so.. nak tak nak. i have to. which is i MUST to keep everything on my own. *kecuali bercerita kat ehem ehem* hee~ iyer la kan. biar la. insyaAllah, org yg bersabar ni.. Allah akan tolong kiter. makanyer, sabar je la ye?

so. BYE

next semester

next semester time table.
though i am free on Friday. doesn;t mean that i can go home anytime i want.
because i have co-curriculum on Saturday..
nasib baik la next semester last amek ko-ku. huu~

this sem pon blum abis lagi kan. hopefully, everything gonna be just fine for me. aminnn..

hello

ouhh well.. hello everybody. how are you?
^_^


have a nice day..
hee~

the CYCLE

You meet new people, become friends, and you eventually become close. You become a group who hangs out on a daily basis. Relationships and feelings form. You have fights and arguments among each other. Break ups happen, friendships are lost, and groups are fallen apart. And you become strangers slowly. But at the end of the day, deep down inside, you miss everything you had with the people you lost - Kristina Bellantes

happy 2nd anniversary

happy 2nd anniversary
happy 24th months
happy 730 days..!!!


^__^

2 years & keep counting honey
i love you
& the love is always blooming.
& it just for you.

no matter how much we get into a fight
but it just a fight kann?
not affecting our love pon.
betol tak..?
ke it does affect ur love?

huu~

ada cara lain untuk express my love tak?
i reti guna perkataan je.
hee~

i LOVE YOU BUNCHET...!!!!!
thanx for everything.
thanx for the love honey..!!
lots of love from ur gemuk.. :)

reminiscing our first met. tp ni masa g jambori aritu. hee~

ke-busy-an

ouhh ye.. mmg bz. life as a student ini. sgt bz. dgn assignments yang melambak-lambak. dengan proposal itu ini nye. dengan nak menguruskan diri nye. huu~ bz dowhhhh..

so, aritu da lepas satu proposal. alhamdulillah, just kne follow up dgn perkara2 lain sampai la hari kejadian tu nnti. nak kne cari sponsor, nak kne settle itu ini.hopefully, smua nye nnti berjalan dengan lancar.

& i have another proposal to be settled up. yang paling tableh blah, trus bagi kerja untuk buat proposal event besar kot.
game wall-climbing inter university in malaysia. erkkk.. den da la 1st year, 1st sem baru. pahtu terus bg event besar. adehhh.. mintak-mintak la mmpu buat. so, to those yang baca nih. ade experience handle game wall-climbing ni. tolong la bg tunjuk ajar. ye?

& ade sape2 berminat nak join?? muehehehe..

lagi satu... sape minat buat cerpen..??? tolong buatkan untuk sayer satu cerpen..!!! hehehhe..

un-recogniz-able number

milik siapakah nombor nombor telefon itu???????
mengapa call beta then senyap biler beta jawab...???
suka sangat maen maen.
lempang laju laju kang baru taw erti penyesalan.
huu~

menyesal

menyesal dengan kata-kata sendiri.
menyesal dengan perkataan-perkataan yang diucapkan tadi.
patutnye simpan sendiri je.
tapi mulut ni celupar sangat.
hurmmm..













*antara rasa hati sendiri dan rasa hati orang lain. patutnye lebih peka, lebih menjaga hati orang lain daripada diri sendiri. dengan itu takkan ada rasa ini. hurmm..

away

away for 4 days & 3 nights.
heading to Terengganu..
jangan rindu sayer ye. hee~






BYEP..!

kepada BONDA tercinta

selamat hari lahir bonda tercinta...
semoga segalanya baik2 sahaja.
semoga dikurniakan kesihatan yang elok.
semoga dipanjangkan umur.
semoga diperluaskan pintu rezki.
semoga sentiasa diberkati Allah.
aminnnn...

sayang mak sangat sangat...!!!!
& terima kasih banyak banyak sebab jaga adek.
dari kecik. sampai ke besor nih.
terima kasih mak..!

today

done with one presentation.
another presentation is going to be tonight.
2 presentations in a day.
one done, one more to go.
after that. legaaaa.. coz no more presentation.
just will be busy with all the prose, short story & assignments.
ouhh yeahhh.. im going to terengganu tomorrow.
Scout Jamboree. hee~
until monday. & back to UPM on Tuesday morning.
where i will have to take a test as soon as i reach UPM. awesomeness kannn..?? huu~
so, reading my notes all the way in Jamboree. way to go eqa. huhuhu..
wish me luck, for the test. & Jamboree.


& its raining a lot today. & im not sleeping. congratulation to me. hehehe




psssttt*1 : thanx awak for the hardwork to get me a place to attend the jamboree. thanx a lot.. :)

psssttt*2 : 4.00 this semester. pray for me yurppp..!

before i go to ZzzzZZz

so.. my last post for today. i mean for tonite.. but err. it's almost 1 am. so.. err.. wutever. huu~

so yeahh.. time moves on. we're getting older. people change. but memories never fade. either sweet or bitter. they are there. in your mind. in your heart. its never fade. kannn..?

hurmmm... i miss my childhood. i miss it badly.

assignment with the 'S' at the end.

yeahhh.. assignment. lots & lots & lots of it. & being busy with the proposal.. it does make me feel a little bit stress & tired actually. but heyy.. student kannn..? everything is student-centered kannnn..? so, here i am. facing those things again. after a year did nothing, "goyang kaki like a queen", & now i have to use my brain in a proper way. muahaha...

so, i have to do 5 poems & a short story. i can handle the poems but not the SHORT STORY.. i'll make it really short if it is POSSIBLE. but nay, it is impossible. huu~

then i have to complete my BM assignment which is LARAS BAHASA ILMIAH. apparently, there are no such things. there are, but not really specific in its ILMIAH thingy. so, yeahh.. student centered again. u have to find it out by ur own. kannnn..??

then i have to critic a speech. ouhh.. maybe just maybe i could find the konon-malaysian-first-lady punyer speech. maybe there ARE lots of things to be criticized. huu~ but in a academic way la der. aiyarkkk..

so... there are 3 assignments. three seems to look a bit kannn? but there are killing me softly. huhuhu.. & the proposal. enough to blow up my head. & when the proposal get the approval, there comes the new explosive in my head. hu hu hu.

pity me. pity me.

it does help

when someone ask u what happen whenever u r in misery, it does make u feel better. at least. someone is still care about u. & it does make ur tears falling down. & all u can do is crying coz what u feel is something that u shud keep on ur own. so, cry as much as u want. if u afraid that people will see ur tears, then wait till its raining. walk in the rain & cry, no onw will see ur tears. i wish it rains today. i would possibly need it. hurmm

diherdik, dihina, ditengking

ye. ak hanya layak untuk dilayan sedemikian rupa. jangan persoalkan mengapa. sbb ak mmg layak untuk dilayan macam tu.

ak terletak kat tempat yang paling bawah. paling hina. ak manusia paling useless. ye. itu ak.
sekian

sakit lagi dan lagi

entah la. asik sakit je dua tiga menjak ni. ade ape2 petanda kah.? huu~
malam tadi tgh syok2 tdo. kol 4 terjaga. langsung tableh tdo da. perut rasa semacam & rasa nak termuntah. tapi buat tataw je dlu. cba gak tdo. dalam kol 5 macam uh bgn la nak duduk sbb perut mmg tak slesa amat. terus termuntah. pintu plak berkunci, kelam kabut nak bukak. bler da muntah2 uh. terus mandi. terus tak tdo. cuba gak nak tdo. tapi keadaan perut yg tak slesa. dgn ade lagi rasa2 muntah kat tekak. mmg meloyakan la kan. haihhh. ape nak jadi ni. asik sakit je ni. 2 mggu lepas. demam. tak boleh tdo malam. siap merapu raban bler tdo. pastu ditambah pulak dengan selesema. mmg terbaikkk la kan..

ouhh badan. jangan lah asik sakit je. kesian la kat saya. saya perlu bertenaga untuk belajar. hurmmm..

final exam 1st sem - session '11/'12

yezzaaa... jadual sudah kuar. so, im not going to be like the old me anymore. whereas last minute study is always the 1st choice. na'ahhh... not anymore dear. it's a new part of life where i have. eh i MUST actually. to do something to rectify everything. to rearrange my life. to put my life into the correct path.

yesss..!! rasa2 nye mampu tak jadi top student lagi? huhu... i will do my best...!!!!

pssstt : i put a target for my 1st semester. its quite higher actually. doakan sayer berjaya mencapai target. :)

hye NOVEMBER

hai NOVEMBER..
welcome new month.
16 days more before mummy's birthday.
27 days more before the 2nd Anniversary.
save the date dear. :)

& November.
please be nice to me.
bring me some good & happy news k November..?

^__^

28 October 2011

sebenarnya, 28 October 2011 genap 2 tahun kenal dier. i mean, yg 1st met kat KEMPORI uh. so, tarikh ni. tarikh kitorg jumpa, tgk muka, pandang pandang, jeling jeling for the very 1st time. makna nye, semalam.. genap 2 tahun kitorang kenal. dan hari ni, 2 tahun 1 hari.

still, ingt lagi that day. tgh jaga registration counter dengan Haniz a.K.a along.. tengah2 dok borak2, gelak2. then datang 3 orang budak lelaki dari MMU Melaka. & then, borak2 sikit ngan dorang ni. yerla kann.. eqa kan org Melaka. MMU tuh plak dekat bebenor ngan umah eqa. tu yg borak2 sikit. few minutes later, datang sorang budak laki lagi. rambut panjang. muka kerek. & terus berjabat tangan ngan abg. Adli. perhati je dier. ntah. tataw knpe bler dgn dier, mulut terus terkatup rapat. terus terbisu. huu~ dier nak isi borang, dier mintak pen. Haniz yg bagi kat dier. masa tu, nak pandang muka dier pon cam, "err, malunyer". hahaha.. giler kannn..? 

so, itu detik2 awal pertemuan kami. yg pada mulanye, terasa asing sekali. tapi ade satu getar, ade satu rasa di lubuk hati. tataw kenapa.. tapi rasa itu yang hadir. yang pada mulanya, tak terlintas langsung akan satu perhubungan yang lebih serius. dan beginilah kami akhirnya.

nak masukkan gmbar awal2 perkenalan kami.. & gmbar pada 28 October 2011. :)

i'm HOME...!!

yeayyy..! home at last. & will be at home for a week. ^__^

but err. err.. its not like the usual holiday actually. i have to help my parents to pack up stuffs & start moving out. & i also have to do my assignments. :)

so, happy holiday everybody...!!

kawan kawan. jom beli tudung

hello kekawannn..
jom tengok tudung kat page eqa & kakak.
ni.. page ni ZAMRO's Hijab.. datang la tgk. mane taw ade yg berkenan kan...?
ade jenis2 tudung yg menjadi idaman kalbu remaja sekarang. hee~
datang tengok taw... ^__^

mid-semester holiday

yeayyy..! next week is our mid-sem holiday. & yeayyy again. i'll be home for a week..!

so, last week on thursday & friday, i had my very first tests in UPM. so far both test were OK. i mean, alhamdulillah i can do it even-though i was not really study for both subjects. & last Monday, i had my Bahasa Melayu Tinggi test. yaaa. im a Malay. for sure i can do it well kannn..? but nay... i was not doing well. & why? because early topics were not about the grammar & so on. it's about theory and history. & my brain, they cannot do well in remembering things. but they can do very very well in calculations. how on earth are you going to remember so many facts in a time? & all the theories & facts are slightly the same...??? arghhh.. its just not suit for me. no at all. we had our discussion yesterday about the test in class. but i was not really remeber what were my answers for those questions. but. hurmm.. its ok. it just a test. & there are lots more things that be done to increase the marks. kannn..?

so, this holiday, its not really a holiday actually. 'coz i have tons of assignment to be done by the end of this holiday. err err.. xpe, to achieve ur ambitions, sacrifice is needed. yeahhh. ;)

tomorrow, i am going to skip one class. because my mom asked to. hehehe.. my mom & dad will be going to kL b'coz my mom have to attend a course. so, there is nobody in Melaka. & my parents ask me to go to kL with them. & so, i have to skip one class la. huu~ my very first 'PONTENG' class for this semester.

& ok. that is all from me. so.. till then. bubye everybody. & last but not least.. HAPPY HOLIDAY DEAR FRIENDS..!!! ^__^

saat ini

saat ni, rasa nak pegi kat tepi pantai yang tade orang atau tepi tasik yang tade orang atau atas bukit atau atas gunung. sebab nak menjerit sekuat hati. nak menangis sepuas-puasnya. dengan harapan semua yang membelenggu diri keluar dari badan melalui jeritan & tangisan yang sehabis boleh tu.

sebab sekarang ni, semua tengah berbuku dalam diri. tak boleh nak keluarkan. so, nak pegi tempat2 yang sedemikian. i need it. badly.

suffocating

ya Allah. terasa diri sangat la dalam keadaan yang suffocate giler. ade benda yang berbuku dalam hati. ade benda yang tak mampu diluahkan. tersangat suffocating sekarang ni.

ade je benda yang tak kena. bler nak buat sumthing, laen yang jadi. mmg tak boleh nak focus lgsg.

dada terasa sakit. sebu. tak mampu nak meluahkan. sbb masih ade hati yang perlu dijaga.






ya Allah, tiada lain yang ku pinta dari-Mu, cuma berikanlah ketabahan dan ketenangan hati. aku pohon pada-Mu. kuatkanlah aku dalam menempuhi segalanya. bantulah aku ya Allah.

senyumku

*yokk.. berpuitis sebentar. mentang2 amek subjek Penglahiran Bakat Kreatif kannnnnnnnnnn.. huhu

senyumku
ada yang plastik
ada yang original
ada yang masam
ada yang manis

senyumku
aku ukirkan jua di bibirku
walau hati terasa walang
aku calitkan jua di wajahku
walau hati penuh calar
ada rasa membelenggu jiwa
tapi ku kuatkan jua diri
demi secebis senyuman
suka walau duka
manis walau pahit

senyum itu sedekah
kata-kata itu
aku pegang
biar pahit bagai hempedu
aku tetap akan mengukir senyum
senyum itu
aku tahu
mampu melenyap duka lara.

kenapa?

hari ini hari AHAD

AHAD adalah satu-satunye hari untuk eqa bangun lambat sepanjang kat UPM. hehehe.. sbb isnin sampai sabtu. semua nye ade kelas. so, AHAD the one & the only day yang eqa boleh berbuat sedemikian. hehe

hari ini hari AHAD. tade aktiviti pon. tapi jap lagi nak study. esok ade test. nak turun makan pon rasa malas je akibat daripada kedudukan bilik yang tggi, berbukit-bukau dan seumpamanya. hehehe.. jap2 lagi je la turun kann..

tapi kan. seriously, tade mood nak study. tataw knpe. maybe since last nite pon da mmg tade mood, then terbawa2 sampai skarang. haihhh.. mood. datang la berlumba2 kpda saya. sbb ssaya perlukan awak. cepat lah ye datang berlumba2. :)

yeayyy.. 6 hari lagi nak mula cuti mid-sem..! seminggu tuuuu. then masuk balik campus. pastu balik lagi sbb raya haji. knpe la dorang tak sambung je cuti tu. kan berlipat ganda best nye. huhu.

& saya merindui seseorang. smalam tgk movie, ade plak actor yang ade iras ngan dier. then buat saya makin rindu. hurmmm.. takpe lah. nanti2 boleh jumpa. kannn..?

so, ini aje cerita untuk ari AHAD ini. sekian. wassalam...

malam ini

malam ini
duduk ku sendiri
memecah sunyi malam
memujuk diri, memujuk hati
dan kini
sendiri lagi melayan hati
sendiri lagi termangu sepi
sendiri lagi berlagu pilu
tanpa ada rasa jemu
rasa itu sering hadir
menemani diri.

seringku pujuk hati,
janganlah kau bersedih
seringku pujuk diri,
janganlah kau menangis
tapi, sering aku memujuk..
makin ia merobek, menikam kalbu
menusuk ke dalam
jauh ke dalam

telah puas ku pujuk
tidak ia beransur reda
terasa sakit
sakit yang berulang kali ku rasakan
sakit yang tak pernah hilang
sakit yang hadir tanpa ada rasa jemu

biarlah
aku yang rasa
sakit pahit getir jiwa itu
kerna ku tahu
ada pelangi selepas hujan.

homesick

i dun care what people wanna say. yes. i am 22 y/o. yes, i've been staying away from my family since my secondary school. then my diploma. & now my degree. yes, i've been staying far far away from them before this. & yes.. i still feel the homesick-fever. & seriously, i dun care what people wanna say about me.

im not a spoiled children. nayyy.. im not. tapi ntah. masih ade rasa rindu, homesick bagai. i just wanna be near with my family. looking at them everyday. hurmmm..

but... nak berjaya, kne lah hadap benda2 macam ni. kannn..? so.. marilah berusaha.

a day out with a friend

last Thursday, i went out with my talkative friend :). let me introduce her to you. her name is Tuan Nor Azani bt Sy Mustafa. i've known her since my Diploma. we were graduated from the same uni & the same course. so, here we meet again. & befriend again. she comes from Terengganu.

ok ok. last Thursday we went out. we went to The Mines. yang banyak bershopping nye si Zani la. huu~ & ktorang g la jugak maen bowling & karoke. zani ni plak, mmg tak la kan nak berkaroke. tapi i forced her to do so. haha.. melayan jugakkk dier tuh. kan zani kann..? & she rarely plays bowling tapi ntah macam mane boleh strike la plak kan. siap ade spare lagi. huhu~ congratz zani. muahahaha

err.. eqa tawu zani ni mmg tak bukak pon blog eqa ni. tapi takpe la. nak cerita jugakkk.. ^_^..

ni ade sikit gambo. tak bnyk pon. because zani was busy bershopping. huhu...

ni lah zani.. ^_^

duit

duit. hidup mmg tapenah lepas dgn masalah duit. yang orang2 dari keluarga berada uh, mmg tade penat kpla nak pk pasal duit nih. sbb dorang sentiasa berduit. & hurmm..

mmg la duit tu tak mampu beli kebahagiaan. tp duit tu.. sgt diperlukan untuk hidup kat zaman sekarang ni. nak makan, nak minum, nak mandi, nak ade elektrik, nak ade segulung ijazah, nak spm. & ape ape lagi la. smua nak kne duit. haihh..

skarang ni plak. rasa macam down. sbb ptptn dapat sikit je. tak dapat full. half pon tak dapat. hurmm. bukan lah ape. tp tanak nyusahkan mak ayah sbenarnya. mak ayah pon nak gna duit untuk benda2 lain. mmg la mak ayah cakap takpe, dorang boleh bayar yuran wutsoever. tapiii. hurmmm. tanak bebankan dorang da. hurmmm.. rasa macam nak stop blaja.

maybe skarang mmg perlu berjimat drpd segala bnda pon. kos sara hidup skarang pon da tggi. hurmm.. takpe la. insyaAllah, eqa buat yang terbaik. untuk semua pengorbanan mak ayah. insyaAllah akan buat yang terbaik untuk dorang. this is the least yg eqa boleh buat skarang. insyaAllah. doakan lah eqa.

the immature creature.. perhapsssss

:) 
& the award goes to....... ME.. huhu..
eh.. mane ade la. i am matured ok, mentally & physically.
just terlebih manja. ngade ngade yg amat. dan sgt meluatkannn..
huu.. kannnn..?
whoever knows me, the close one i mean. they know how annoying i can be.

gambar saje saje.

shutting down.
deactivating.
deleting.
& everything.

a post to myself

i am already in a miserable situation. where .. yaaa. i have to face it all. by my own self. coz no one could help. & yess. it is my problems. so, need to face it alone.

hurmm.. as we know, life will never stay at the same level. kannn..? so, here i am facing up my DUKA PAHIT SUSAH PAYAH moments. so, my wheels went down.

eqa. ingt.. yg pertama skali, gembirakan mak ayah dlu. study rajin2, tolak semua masalah ke tepi. dapatkan pointer yg baik. jadi org yg berjaya. balas balik jasa mak ayah. itu bnda pertama. yang lain2.. biar Allah aturkan. though u have ur own plan. sentiasa beringt.. awak hnya merancang. tp Allah jua yg menentukan. ingt.. awak kne focus kat tempat blaja awak. ingt tu selalu. keluarga kne diutamakan. susah senang awak, keluarga jugak yg support awak.

hurmm.. mak ayah, doakan yg terbaik untuk orang. kakak, hurmm.. if u read this. tlg doakan yg terbaik utk ak. k..?







p/s : tolonglah jgn macam ni lagi.

i am who i am

yess.. i am who i am. i wont easily change for sumthing yg tak masuk akal. or maybe it does make sense for some people, but maybe it is just not for me.

i know myself, & yes.. i know myself better than others. maybe there is a saying like "people who sees you daily, knows the best about you". as for me, no it isn't. & y not,...? because, they only see the outside of me, they do not know the inside me, my heart, my feelings, my real attitude. no, they don't know me like i do. ok..?

why i have to change..? do i have to change to make people happy? & how's mine...? do i have to fight, to have conflict with my OWN self..? do i..? nayyy..! i know who i am. i know what to do. i know how to take care of myself. though sometimes my decision is not sumthing yang BIJAK, but let me face the risk. so that i will know how it feels by my own. let i face it, let me have the experience. & hey, we do learn from experience kan..?

ntah la. sometimes, it puts me in a guilt situation actually. where i have to make a choice between my own decision & people decision. so, i have conflict with my own self there. *when u have conflict dgn diri sendri, that's the time where u have to meet the counselor* ..

hurmmm.. but then, i have to mind myself. i am who i am. if sumthing happens, & u need to do sumthing bout it, & u know that u are the kind of the person that will do anything, & U KNOW WHO YOU ARE. then just do. why bothering urself with people's thinking. as long as i know what im doing is not giving me any harm secara lahiriah or insaniah, then just do. Allah knows ur intention well than people do. so, biar Allah yang mengadilinya.

no, do not stop me from doing sumthing yang da mmg diri saya. yg secara lahiriah dan insaniah nye, itulah saya. no, jgn lah buat saya berhenti. even now, i am doing my best to be a better Muslim. i am trying the best of me  even sumtimes there are few mistakes here & there either its intentionally or unintentionally. but i am trying. maybe the things that people are trying to stop me to do are sumthing good that are naturally come from me. & maybe that are the only good thing yang saya mampu buat sebagai seorang insan kat muka bumi ni wallahualam.

p/s : moga petunjuk Allah sentiasa ada untuk saya. insyaAllah.

mi familia

they are my Jantung Hati.
without them. i am nothing.
without them. i am dead.

love them with all of my heart.

p/s : ya Allah, protect them from any harm, from any diseases. make them happy & give them a good health. aminnn

look alike

ok.. macam ni  cerita nye. daripada awal masuk UPM ni la kan. few yg jumpa eqa. then borak borak. they said like this
"eh.. muka akak ni macam muka artis la"
"err.. sape plak..?"
"macam Dira. Dira abu zahar tu"
~.~'' dabel sweat. hahaha

seriously...? ade iras kahh..? dun think so la. jauh kottttt.. me look prettier.. HAHAHAHA. *ye, saya masuk bakul angkat sendiri* ^__^

tak cukup ngan Dira abu zahar tuh. ade gak cakap muka eqa macam Adira Af8. ade ke patut...? 

then.. used to hear from few people too. before masuk UPM nih. time skola & time UDM dlu kannn.. they said muka eqa macam Ngasriah Ngasri also known as Anne. huhuhu..

haihhhh laaaa.. macam macam la kannn..? dorang yg kopipes muka eqa. bukan eqa k. hehehe.

imma student..!

rasa nya, its been few posts yang eqa bercakap pasal eqa ni plajar kannn..? huhu.. bior la. nak cakap gak lagiii..

so, my life as a student. againnn.. hurmm.. its quite ok i guess. i have my friends here. ZANI especially nye. my talkative friend. huhu.. she is in the same course as mine. MIZAH is in B.A. English Literature. ouhh & we are not in the same college (blok dekat je pon) muahaha.. so, setiap hari g class dengan Zani. though few classes we're not in the same group but our classes are in the same time. so, g la same same kan. mizah je la. ade satu class je kot yang same dgn dier.


& we are the oldest kot untuk batch ni. HAHAHA.. tapi takpe. mostly cakap eqa cam 19 jew.. *haha..bangga nih*

basically everything is ok. my subjects.. those are subjects yang mmg da blaja masa diploma dlu. ade yang dapat exemption, yang laen tuh.. harus lahhhhh diambil. huhu.. insyaAllah... untuk degree ni.. tade da maen2 masa diploma dlu. i'll do my best. & all i think is my parents. i know i have to do something for them. & having a degree, make them proud with my results. that are maybe the best thing i can do for them.. for now.

so, doakan lah kejayaan eqa. & eqa doakan jugak kejayaan untuk rakan2 sekalian k. insyaAllah.

notakaki : mak ayah, i'll do this for both of you k. i'll make sure that i will. eh no. i must do the best. thanx for everything. thanx for raising me up. thanx for all the sacrifices u have done for me. thanx. & orang minta maaf untuk semua salah orang. minta maaf sbb menjadi anak yang bnyk buat salah, kadang2 ter'derhaka'. minta maaf mak ayah. doakan kejayaan orang k. i love both of you.

hey 28th..!

heyya...! its 28th of the month. :)

to mista Bunchet..
happy 22nd month bunchet...
another 2 months to make it officially 2 years.
wow.. so many 2 huhh..? huhu

err.. i know, im not doing this at 12 sharp in the midnight.
but trust me. i want. but i waited for u last nite.
u know kannn.. since bergelar STUDENT ni.. i always sleep early. kannn..?
so.. i cant hold my eyes to keep it open till midnight. & type a post.
or wait for u the whole night.
but what can i do. u didn't make any move.
& I WAS THE ONE WHO WISHED IT FIRST..
baek kann i..???
even we were in some complicated situation this morning.
huhuhu..

hey BUNCHET..!
thanx for everything. thanx for being there whenever & wherever i need u.
thanx for soothing me when im down.
thanx for being patient with my silly, immature attitude.
thanx a lot.
for everything that i will never ever can repay.
we are so different. kannn..?

with words, its never enough to show the real love kan..?
my act pon, its never enough to make u believe that i love u kan..?
but, trust me.
i love u.
& i know, that feeling is there since the first time i met u.
& i still can remember all the memories at there.
& how i feel when i saw u. how i got jealous when i saw u with others.
& how silly i am to have a feeling for a stranger. for someone i never met before.
& i always thought that i was dreaming. to have u as mine.
& i feel like a fairy tale.
:)

err.. panjang da rasanye. huu~
last...!!!
I LOVE YOU MISTA BUNCHET...!!!

the TOO

don't trust TOO much
don't love TOO much
don't hope TOO much
because that TOO much can hurt u so much..

there is a time

there is a time or situation where u will be alone. some will say they will be by urside wherever or whenever u need them. but.. it is not all the time.

& i am facing it. where i have to confront it on my own.

when u need someone, he/she rarely there for u. but when they need u, u will always do ur best for them. life is unfair kan?

i am 22 y/o

i am 22 years old..!!
hepi birthday to me.
:)

i want to celebrate my birthday with my families & mr. Bunchet.
tapi pagi2 lagi mak da col.
mak nyanyikan lagu besday.
then ayah plak.
huu~
tgh malam td, masa tdo..
mR. bunchet called & wished me.
huu~ tapi tade kesempatannya.

& today. on my birthday.
a million thanks to my room-mates.
tersangat-sangat berterima kasih untuk cake.
& the surprise.
thanx sangat akak2 bilik yg super duper cool.
yang blakon tak hengat dunia. huhu
terpedaya eqa auwww..
thanx sgt sgt..!!!
^_^

a note to myself : i am supposedly act matured than before. think matured than before. i am 22 y/o. & i am supposedly have to stand on my own without relying on others. insyaAllah.

bler hati kat umah

so, tadi bertolak dari melaka dalam kol 5 ptg. then kereta mmg bnyk giler la kan all the way nak ke seremban uh. dari bandar da bnyk kereta da.

dalam kereta, kepala otak & hati still kat umah. huu~ berat hati mehhhh.. nak bawah ketiak mak & ayah. mak ayah..!! SAYANG SANGAT KAT MAK AYAH TAW..!!!

ok ok.. bukan itu yang nak diceritakan. tadi sampai kat stesen KTM seremban dalam 6 lebih. so...
me : ke seremban satu
abg kaunter : ehh.. jangan la main main
me : mane de main2. nak ke seremban la..
tetibaaa
me : eh.. jap jap. salah. nak ke serdang.. *malu gilakkk*
abg kaunter : ni da bgn tido ke belom?
hahahahaha..
memang giler kannn..?? adeh laaa. eqa eqaaa.. sewel sungguh anda ni..

dalam train.. ya Allah. mampat. macam sardin. sardin pon ade ruang2. huhu. sampai serdang da kol 8 kott.. then tggu bus UPM plak. then balik ostel.. thennnnnn.. ostel takde air...!!! haihhh...

takpe la. itu kisah siswi buat masa ini. hehe.. bersambung lagi yurppp.. tata..!

eh jap.. zani dapat masuk UPM..!!!!

the WE, the US.

i love you. & there will be no full-stop.

sekali lagi

bubye melaka.
hello serdang. hurmmm

berat hati je rasa nak balik. huu~
tp akan cuba balik jugak. takpe la.
melaka - serdang. tak jauh da kan.
lagipon nak settlekan ptptn nnti.

so, lepas ni. jarang sket la nak meng'update' blog.
al-maklum la. wifi uni kann.
maka, jgn la marah kalo blog ini sepi.

kepada awak.
maafkan saya kerna tak mampu memenuhi permintaan awak.

new chapter of life

hollaa everybody. its been a longgggggggggg time since my last post, kannn...?? so, here i am no. updating my new life. my new chapter of life.

so, as u know, in my last post, it was stated there that i am furthering my study in UPM. ok.. i am taking Bac. in English Linguistic. course ni sbenarnye.. same je ngan TESL dlu.. but, right now, i am trying to change my course. nak amek TESL balik. so, doakan lah saya berjaya menukar course. ok..?

my orientation days. sbb ade 4 hari je orientasi nye. huu~ ok la kot. just.. yaaa.. i was homesick. haha. sengal jaa kann..? umah takde lah jauh macam masa study kat terengganu dlu. but heyy.. homesick is still homesick, okkkk..?

my 1st week in UPM, it was ok. UPM is not like UDM, where i could just walk to here & there but in UPM i have to get on the bus. & mostly everything is on my own. its one way of being independent kan.. huhu.. berdikari la sangat. insyaAllah.

now saya kat rumah. tapi esok da balik UPM. & maybe after 5 weeks baru boleh balik. sbb every Saturday i have to attend my Koku class. balik yg lagi 5 weeks tu pon sbb cuti sem. nasib baek umah dekat. huhuhu..

so.. tu je la kot wat masa ni. byeee..

pssstt : doakan saya berjaya di UPM. :)

UPM

i am going there.
UPM..
hurmm..
mix feelings.

Ya Allah, permudahkan jalan yang ku akan lalui. aminnn..

p/s : awak jangan nakal2 ye sayang. i love u. gonna miss my life at home. gonna miss my mom & dad.wee~ cam bebudak kann..? agak laaa.. :)

study time.

ouhh no. its coming. 1 day left. & its on the day after tomorrow. i haven't pack anything yet. i haven't prepare anything yet including myself. huhu

yesterday, i was anxious. thinking about this & that. what should i bring, what should i do, is there anything else that i haven't fill up. how am i going to start a new day at there. how this & that, what this & that. & everything. & yesterday, when i was thinking about this, suddenly i felt nervous. huu~ my heart started beating faster than ever. ya la. its been a year i didn't do anything. my brain hadn't function well. kannn..? so, im a bit scared pon ade jugakkk.

sooooo, i have to make a move right now. start to gather all the stuffs, & pack them up into the luggage.. & do pray for me yaaa. huhu.

my raya.. :)

my raya this year. it was so-so. ^_^. i'm no longer little girl kan.. so, raya is something yang biasa biasa aja la kot. no more eager feeling for raya. exception for MAKAN.. hehehe..

& eager to meet my big families. because raya is the only time for us to gather & meet each other. not the only time la. but u know la how it feels when u & ur big families celebrate something together kannn..? so, i was eager to meet them. & today... they are back to their hometown.

& im counting for the next time for us to gather again.

so, i'll put some picture here. & the rest of the picture. u can see it in my facebook. but.. maybe i'll update them a bit late. wee~

p/s : me & my cuzzies... we LOVE to take pictures. lot of them. huhu

eidul fitri

wahhh.. tgk kat fB, ramai je yg da upload gmbo raya. huu~ takpe lah. untuk eqa.. i will celebrate raya till puas, da amek gmbo puas2, then baru sumbat dalam fB. hehehe..
kannnnn...?? baru syiokkkk habis. huhu

so, 1st sampai 3rd raya, eqa & family raya kat Selangor. kat Bandar Sunway. taw katne..? alaaaa.. yg dekat ngan Sunway Pyramid uh. jalan kaki je da sampai. huhu~ masa kat Selangor uh, ada lah berhari raya kat umah2 sdare kat Damansara, Puchong, err. Klang. hah.. tu la. puas beraya kat highway. huhu.. ^_^

so, untuk raya tahun ni, i will hold sampai la camera uh da penuh memory nye. wee~

& petang ni plak, nak gerak g Batu Pahat. umah paklong plak.... actually, umah sdare2 yg dekat ni tak beraya lagi. haha.. takpe, they can wait. ^_^

till then.. bubye sayang sayang semua.

Happy Eid everyone..!

hello everyone..!
tomorrow raya sudahhh..!
:)
so, i would like to use this opportunity *as im not going to online for few days starting this evening* to wish all of you a Happy Eidul Fitri.
im sorry for my wrong-doings, for my bad words, for my bad attitude, for my lack of concerns & for everything i had done intentionally or unintentionally. im sorry.
have a nice Syawal everyone. wish you prosperity on the Muslims' big day as we had successfully got through over a challenging month.

Selamat Hari Raya
Maaf Zahir & Batin...!!

21st

happy
21st
month

:)

feel like

i feel like deactivating EVERYTHING.
including my LIFE.
can i?

ya Allah, i am begging You, give me strength & patience. only that.

it doesn't matter

it doesn't matter anymore.
things happen for a reason. tears eventually fade & one day everything will be exactly how it is supposed to be.
moving on is a process & i have to promise myself that i am really ready to let go.

it doesn't matter anymore.
just.. i don't want to think bout it anymore. 'coz it drives me crazy. crazy enough to ruin everything.
i am giving up to take care of everything. gave up caring bout what people think. gave up caring bout what people feel. gave up caring bout what people say.

& it doesn't matter anymore.

subuh yang hening

masih belum merehatkan diri.
masih belum merehatkan otak.
masih lagi terjaga di subuh yang hening.

hurmm..
wish everything works well.
wish i have a better life onward.
wish Allah will always help me.
wish i am strong enough to face the reality.
wish i cud stop dreaming & accept the reality.
wish i cud stop wishing.
& live with the flow.

sometimes, i need a rest.
from everything.
from living.
hurmm

jom bercerita

shud be telling this story to someone. takpe lah. citer kat cni je la. :)

siang tadi masa tgh syok online, tiba2 ade dgr mende jatuh. tol2 kat sbelah. then tgk2 ade ulat bulu. beso lak uh.  masalahnya, tgkap tutup. dier panjat ke ek? ~.~'

bler da nampak dier kat ctu, g la amek surat kabar. then buang dier kuar dari tgkap. huhu..

petang plak, g berbuka kat eQ. ngan family. :) 

malam pulak... tgk on9 lagik. letak lappy atas box. pas uh kan. tgk dok meraba kat tepi box uh. box uh macam ade lekuk. so, tak nampak la ape mnde kat lekuk uh. then masa dok meraba uh, terasa sumthing yg macam berbulu. da lam kepala otak.."ni mesti kaen pape yg terjuntai nih". bler alihkan tgn je. ade mende jatuh. bler dok belek.. perghhhh.. ulat bulu..!!! mane datang..?!

then, g la amek surat kabo, kaut dier. pastu branikan diri bukak tgkap. campak dier keluar. hee~

nasib baek la tgn tak gatal2. da la siap maen2 kan jari bler ingt mnde uh kaen yg terjuntai. huhu..

ulat bulu. kok ye pon.  jgn la men sembunyi2 macam tu lagi ye. :)


ps : its going to rain. & so do my heart. but plz dun.

rabun O rabun

smalam g check mata sbb nak buat spec baru. ok. before ni power mata.
kanan : 350
kiri : 325

sikalanggg punya power
kanan : 300
kiri : 375

err errr.. pe cer ni..? knpe power mata kanan turun. kiri naek? huhuhu..
pelik sungguh nih. ~.~'

ade sape sape tau cara nak turunkan power mata..? tanak pakai spec lagi la. huhu
kalo ade sape sape tau. silalah berkongsi caranya ye. :)

usahawati :)

wee~ trying to do something new. kecil-kecilan ajaa. insyaAllah, kalo ade rezki, bleh la buat besar-besaran. ye dak..?
hehehe..
so, eqa ngan kakak try nak jual tudung. sila tgk di SINI..

some picca.. :)

bokeh

yeahh..!! just now i am successfully learned how to create a bokeh effect using photoshop..!!
congratulation to me.. hehe..
ni dua gmbar yang berjaya di'BOKEH'kan.
saya baru blajar kan. so, gambar tade la nak perfect mane pon. pape pon. hepi gilakkk..!!
^__^

one more thing.. nak photoshop lightroom laa.

melaka-seremban-Jalan TAR & melaka

semalam pergi Jalan TAR. dengan kakak, abg nadzri &amp; si Bunchet.
dari Melaka gerak ke Seremban dgn kak linda. sbb dier pon nak ke Jalan TAR. dgn tunangnya. tapi dorang nak benti kat Seremban je sbb dorang nak naek train. ktorang gerak dalam 8 lebih. so, kat Seremban uh eqa ngan Bunchet tukar kereta plak. bermula la perjalanan ke Jalan TAR.

around noon jugak la baru sampai sane. jammed tayah citer la kan. da name pon Kuala Lumpur. then, berjalan-jalan lah kami kat Jalan TAR uh. actually ade gak planned ngan yeen nak jumpa kat sane. dier col, dier cakap dalam 2 lebih baru gerak. then masa dier da sampai uh. eqa ngan yg laen nak gerak balik da. huu~ tak larat da wehhh.. ngan bersesak2 nye kat sane. panas lagi. puasa lagi. huhu.. tak larat tak larat.

masa kat Jalan TAR uh. eqa ngan akk carik tudung. nak bli borong. nak buat jual. hee~ nnti eqa masukkan gmbo tudung ea. kalo nak beli. gtau eqa auwww.. ^_^.  ade gak bli barang2 untuk mak &amp; ayah. nak blikan untuk mak lagi satu barang tp tak jumpa. so, mak... nanti kiter carik kat Melaka je la ea. hee.

lepas g Jalan TAR, g Bangi plak. cuba gak carik baju untuk mak kat bazar &amp; kat PKNS Bangi. tapi tade jugak. lepas uh. terusssss ke tempat nak berbuka. kat Village View. berbuka la kami kat sane. lepas berbuka gerak ke Seremban plak. anta abg nadzri kat  KTM. then, tggu kak linda plak. col kak linda. kak linda cakap dier kat umah kak ita. kakak pon drive la ke Senawang. actually umah kak ita dgn kakak dkat je. so, senang je la kakak nak balik.

dalam kol 11 lebih, gerak ke melaka pulakk. balik umah kan. salin je baju. terus tdo. huhu.. giler penat. sampai sahur pon terbangun kol 5.20 pg. so. itu la cerita semalam.

ni plak sedikit gmbo. :)